That Kind of Misery

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I miss the kind of misery That knew exactly where I hurt You saved your kindness for the evening Then left me guessing what it meant The kettle clicked, the curtains swayed Your jacket hung beside the door You called me beautiful at midnight Then turned to someone I ignored [Pre-Chorus] I learned your weather by the hour Rain in the morning, warmth at ten I kept confusing borrowed comfort For something you would choose again [Chorus] So I ask him, am I dreaming? Did he mean the things you said? Was I loved beneath the ceiling Or just easier in bed? I miss that kind of misery The tenderness with terms and fees You were nice to me in the evening Then disappeared by morning tea [Verse 2] Your message waited by the fruit bowl A little heart, a little lie I read it till the words went blurry Like they could teach me how to stay alive The neighbors dragged their bins outside The hallway filled with winter air You kissed my forehead like a promise Then wore indifference everywhere [Pre-Chorus] I know the shape of being wanted When wanting has an ending time Still, every dusk I hear you coming And dress the wound up as a sign [Chorus] So I ask him, am I dreaming? Did he mean the things you said? Was I loved beneath the ceiling Or just easier in bed? I miss that kind of misery The tenderness with terms and fees You were nice to me in the evening Then disappeared by morning tea [Bridge] If kindness was a borrowed coat I wore it through the cold If I was only half your home Why did you hold me so? Tell me I was not imagining The hand beneath my sleeve Tell me some part of you was honest Before you made me leave [Final Chorus] So I ask him, am I dreaming? Did he mean the things you said? Was I loved beneath the ceiling Or just easier in bed? I miss that kind of misery The tenderness with terms and fees You were nice to me in the evening Then disappeared by morning tea [Outro] I miss the ache because it knew me I miss the lie because it stayed You were nice to me in the evening And I was foolish enough to wait