Small White Fire

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I kept a little kingdom in the kitchen drawer Counted out the hours, then I counted more Blue glass on the counter, morning in my eyes You asked me where I’d been—I gave you polished lies [Pre-Chorus] But the body keeps a ledger, every borrowed day And the hands I used to hide from started pulling me away [Chorus] I’m putting down the small white fire Walking through the room I set alight You can call it fear, you can call it higher I’m still here, and I’m choosing life tonight No silver bullet, no perfect ending Just your hand and a door left wide I was disappearing, now I’m mending Step by step, with the truth on my side [Verse 2] I found old receipts inside a winter coat Tiny proof of every promise that I broke Told my sister everything, let the silence stay She didn’t fix the damage—she just helped me face the day [Pre-Chorus] Now the morning has a color I forgot I knew And every honest answer makes a little more room [Chorus] I’m putting down the small white fire Walking through the room I set alight You can call it fear, you can call it higher I’m still here, and I’m choosing life tonight No silver bullet, no perfect ending Just your hand and a door left wide I was disappearing, now I’m mending Step by step, with the truth on my side [Bridge] If I stumble, let me stumble where you see If I’m shaking, stay beside me, don’t rescue me I don’t need to be a saint to start again I just need to tell the truth, and tell it to a friend [Final Chorus] I’m putting down the small white fire Leaving room for every breath tonight You can call it slow, but I’m climbing higher I’m still here, and I’m choosing life tonight No silver bullet, no perfect ending Just our hands and a door left wide I was disappearing, now I’m mending Step by step, with the truth on my side [Outro] Step by step, I’m coming back No more hiding what I lack Step by step, I’m coming back With the truth on my side