Paranoia Made This Room My

Lyrics

[Intro] Curtains shut, deadbolt turned I don't trust the quiet in this room [Verse 1] Two days awake, jaw locked tight Counting every car that passes by Phone face down, let the whole world wait I hear my name in the pipes and vents Mirror says I look like someone else Hands won't stop, heart won't settle down Mom left a note by the kitchen sink I read it once, then I hid the ink [Pre-Chorus] Every corner got a reason Every breath feels like a warning I built a cage from empty hours Now the cage is calling [Chorus] I shut the door, I kill the phone Paranoia made this room my home No friends left, no sleep, no peace This poison takes and never leaves I see a threat in every face I run from help, I hide in place If I keep feeding what I fear I'll disappear while standing here [Verse 2] Blankets pinned across the window frame Tape on the lock, but it knows my name Missed three shifts, lost another week Can't meet your eyes when you try to speak You brought soup, I said, "They followed you" Saw the hurt, but I still withdrew The sink is full and the rent's past due The only thing I guard is what ruins me [Pre-Chorus] Every corner got a reason Every breath feels like a warning I built a cage from empty hours Now the cage is calling [Chorus] I shut the door, I kill the phone Paranoia made this room my home No friends left, no sleep, no peace This poison takes and never leaves I see a threat in every face I run from help, I hide in place If I keep feeding what I fear I'll disappear while standing here [Bridge] Take the lock off Open the blinds Say my name slow Don't leave me behind I don't need another promise I need one honest hand Before this room becomes a coffin Before I forget who I am [Final Chorus] I shut the door, but I want out I’m learning what the fear’s about No more lies, no more hiding deep I need a way back into sleep You see the wreck, you stay nearby You don't believe the things I spy If I stop feeding what I fear Maybe I can still be here [Outro] Curtains open, deadbolt turned Morning finds me where I burned One small step, then another one I’m not healed, but I’m not gone