Coming Out of My Bones

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I was a kid trying to read the room Learning love could turn to thunder You said sorry like a closing door And I kept hoping it meant something softer I carried your storms beneath my skin Called it loyalty, called it forever But every promise that you couldn’t keep Taught my heart to brace for weather [Pre-Chorus] I hear your voice when I lose my peace A verdict hiding underneath But I’m done confusing fear with home I’m done mistaking hurt for what I’m owed [Chorus] I’m coming out of my bones Pulling your name from the marrow I gave you the best of my soul You left me a house full of shadows Now every scar has a pulse of its own Every locked door is finally open I’m not the child you abandoned alone I’m coming out of my bones [Verse 2] I learned to laugh before you got angry To disappear without leaving Kept my heart folded under my tongue So nobody knew what I was needing I wore your silence like a winter coat Even in rooms where the windows were open Then one morning I looked in the sink And saw a life I could still choose to hold [Pre-Chorus] I hear your voice when I lose my peace But it doesn’t get to speak for me The blood I carry isn’t your command I can be gentle with these hands [Chorus] I’m coming out of my bones Pulling your name from the marrow I gave you the best of my soul You left me a house full of shadows Now every scar has a pulse of its own Every locked door is finally open I’m not the child you abandoned alone I’m coming out of my bones [Bridge] If I tremble, let me tremble If I break, let it be clean There is more beneath the damage Than the person you made of me I can grieve what I was given Without carrying it home I can love the life before me With a heart that is my own [Final Chorus] I’m coming out of my bones No longer begging for shelter I gave you the best of my soul Now I’m gathering every lost ember Let the old weight fall like stone Let the new blood run where it’s chosen I’m not the child you abandoned alone I’m coming out of my bones I’m coming out of my bones [Outro] You were the wound I was born around But you are not the shape I’m becoming