Solstice

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I don’t sleep, I disappear Close my eyes, you still appear Funny how the quiet gets So loud when you’re not here I got shadows on my ceiling Got some things I don’t believe in If I tell myself I’m healing Why the hell do I still feel it? Maybe I’m just tired Maybe I’m just scared Maybe I don’t miss you I just miss who I was there ⸻ [Pre-Chorus] And I know Everybody hurts alone Somebody somewhere’s crying too But that don’t make it hurt less When the night gets through ⸻ [Chorus] Soulstice Something changed in me I don’t know when it happened But I’m not who I used to be Soulstice Winter underneath my skin I keep sleeping with my monsters ‘Cause they’re the only ones that let me in Ooh, I hate the night But I love what I become When I close my eyes And there’s nowhere left to run Soulstice Maybe losing me Was the way I found me ⸻ [Verse 2] I keep my phone on silent Still hoping that it rings I say I like my distance Then wonder why nobody sees I got a thousand little ghosts Living underneath my thoughts They don’t scare me anymore I think I finally know what they want Maybe they want attention Maybe they want release Maybe all my monsters Are just pieces of me And I don’t wanna kill them I just wanna let them sleep ⸻ [Pre-Chorus] ’Cause I know Everybody needs somebody close But sometimes being alone Is the only way you hear Your own soul ⸻ [Chorus] Soulstice Something changed in me I don’t know when it happened But I’m not who I used to be Soulstice Winter underneath my skin I keep sleeping with my monsters ‘Cause they’re the only ones that let me in Ooh, I hate the night But I love what I become When I close my eyes And there’s nowhere left to run Soulstice Maybe losing me Was the way I found me ⸻ [Bridge] Don’t wake me I’m somewhere between Who I was And who I’m gonna be Don’t save me I’m learning the difference Between being lonely And finally being free And if the monster knows my name Maybe that’s okay ‘Cause I’ve been running from myself For too long anyway ⸻ [Final Chorus] Soulstice Something changed in me Maybe I was breaking Maybe I was meant to leave Soulstice I don’t need the light tonight Let me lay here with my shadows Till they don’t feel so alive And if I dream alone I don’t have to dream afraid Everybody has their monsters Everybody has their days Soulstice Maybe losing me Was the way I found me ⸻ [Outro] So let me sleep Let me sleep Let the monsters breathe Maybe when I wake I’ll be somebody I finally wanna keep.