Still In Fallujah

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Boots by the door Still caked in dust Mama said, “Son” You’re safe with us I nodded slow But I saw the road Brown desert sky And the long convoy load Dinner on the stove Tasted like ash Fork in my hand Flash after flash [Pre-Chorus] I hear a door slam I hit the floor My heart still checks For one more war I blink and I’m gone Back through the smoke Can’t shake that sound That name I spoke [Chorus] I’m home, but I’m not home Still out there alone I’m home, but I’m not home My mind won’t come home (come home) (come home) [Verse 2] The boys got jobs And kids in school I sit on the porch Like a broken tool Fireworks crack On the Fourth of July I taste dry sand I can’t tell you why Laundry spins Like rotor blades I clutch my chair When the hallway shakes She holds my hand Says breathe, just breathe But I’m back in the dust Where the ghosts still feed [Pre-Chorus] I hear a door slam I hit the floor My heart still checks For one more war I blink and I’m gone Back through the smoke Can’t shake that sound That name I spoke [Chorus] I’m home, but I’m not home Still out there alone I’m home, but I’m not home My mind won’t come home (come home) (come home) [Bridge] I was nineteen When they sent me away Now I got wrinkles And a mind that won’t stay There’s a kid in my chest With his hands on the wheel He sees every shadow He feels what I feel If I close my eyes I’m back in the heat If I open them up I can’t find my feet [Chorus] I’m home, but I’m not home Still out there alone I’m home, but I’m not home My mind won’t come home (come home) (come home) [Outro] Say my name real slow Pull me back through I’m here in the room But I’m still with you Home, but I’m not home Home, but I’m not home