Feel less

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I’m sorry for the weight I brought Into a life already full, For every line that got too blurry, Every moment I should’ve pulled. I never meant to complicate you, Never meant to make things hard, I just found somebody who could see me Past the jokes and through my guard. And somewhere in those late-night talks, In all the stupid things we’d say, You became the first damn person I wanted to tell about my day. [Pre-Chorus] And maybe I should’ve been more careful, Maybe I should’ve known the cost, But I wasn’t looking for these feelings— I just looked up and I was lost. [Chorus] I love you, Jed, More than I probably ought to say, More than something casual, More than I know what to do with anyway. And yeah, I’d love something more, If this were some other life, If wanting you was all it took To somehow make the timing right. But I know what I can’t have, And I won’t tear your world apart. So I’ll love you as my best friend And keep the rest here in my heart. [Verse 2] You’re the best friend I have ever had, And God, that scares me too, ‘Cause losing some imagined future Would hurt less than losing you. You know the ugly parts I hide, The ones I laugh away, You can tell when “I’m fine” means “Please don’t leave me here today.” You’ve seen me messy, loud and stubborn, Seen me scared and insecure, And somehow never made me feel Like I was something you endured. So I’m sorry if I crossed a line, Or made you question where we stand, I’d rather lose the dream of more Than lose my very best friend. [Chorus] ‘Cause I love you, Jed, More than I probably ought to say, More than some harmless little feeling That eventually fades away. And yeah, I’d love something more, I won’t lie and say I wouldn’t, There are a thousand little futures I’ve imagined though I shouldn’t. But loving someone sometimes means Knowing where your wanting ends, So I’ll put down every fantasy Before I lose my best friend. [Bridge] Maybe somewhere in another world There’s a version where we try, Where nobody gets hurt by it, Nobody has to choose a side. Maybe I get to reach for you Without wondering who it breaks. Maybe loving you is simple there And nobody pays for our mistakes. But this is where we are, And I finally understand: I don’t need to be the woman you choose To be grateful for the man Who showed up when I needed someone, Who made the dark feel less alone. You gave me something bigger than romance— You gave my heart a home. [Final Chorus] So I’m sorry, Jed, For every way I made this hard. For letting feelings grow too big And wander farther than they should’ve gone. And I love you. I’m done pretending that I don’t. I would love something more with you— But loving you means knowing that I won’t. So if all I ever get Is laughing with you years from now, Being the friend who knows your heart And somehow sticks around— That’s enough. It has to be. And maybe someday it really will. You’re the best friend I have ever had. I love you. And I always will.