Mercy in the Half-Light

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I miss that kind of misery The kind that wore your borrowed coat You’d save the softer parts of you For when the evening took us both You were nice to me after sundown Careful with the words you chose By morning, I was just a question You left folded in your clothes [Pre-Chorus] So I ask him, am I dreaming? He says, "You know the answer, dear" But your hand is still on my shoulder And your voice is still in my ear [Chorus] Was it mercy in the half-light? Was it love you couldn’t keep? You made a home out of the quiet Then abandoned me in sleep I miss that kind of misery The kind that almost felt like peace If you were kind to me at evening Why were you gone by morning’s reach? [Verse 2] I kept your glass beside the sink Though you never drank from it A little ritual for the person Who appeared and disappeared Every night became a doorway Every dawn became a test I learned to trust the dark around me More than I trusted what you said [Pre-Chorus] So I ask him, am I dreaming? He looks away and counts to three There are some ghosts that feel like shelter There are some wounds that let you breathe [Chorus] Was it mercy in the half-light? Was it love you couldn’t keep? You made a home out of the quiet Then abandoned me in sleep I miss that kind of misery The kind that almost felt like peace If you were kind to me at evening Why were you gone by morning’s reach? [Bridge] Maybe I loved the little window Not the room behind the door Maybe being almost chosen Was the cruelest thing you wore And if I wake without your kindness If the night gives nothing back I’ll still hear you in the hallway Turning tenderness to ash [Final Chorus] Was it mercy in the half-light? Was it love you couldn’t keep? You made a home out of the quiet Then abandoned me in sleep I miss that kind of misery The kind that almost felt like peace If you were kind to me at evening I’ll stop asking what it means [Outro] So I ask him, am I dreaming? No one answers from the hall The evening leaves without you And I’m still here after all