Not Dead

Lyrics

[Verse 1] The ceiling keeps its distance The hallway holds its breath I count the cracks above me Like reasons not to leave this bed Every thought arrives uninvited Sits beside me in the blue They tell me I am finished But I still reach for you [Pre-Chorus] Somewhere past the locked door Morning is learning my name I press my palm against the cold glass And wait for the change [Chorus] I’m trapped inside with the voices in my head Turning every quiet word into a threat But if the light can find the key If it can find its way to me I won’t believe the things they said I’m trapped inside, but I’m not dead [Verse 2] The kettle clicks at sunrise A small mechanical prayer Dust moves across the windowsill There’s still a world out there I write your name on scrap paper Fold it underneath my sleeve One honest thing to carry One reason to believe [Pre-Chorus] Somewhere past the locked door Morning is learning my name I press my palm against the cold glass And wait for the change [Chorus] I’m trapped inside with the voices in my head Turning every quiet word into a threat But if the light can find the key If it can find its way to me I won’t believe the things they said I’m trapped inside, but I’m not dead [Bridge] Let the first beam cross the floor Let it touch what I ignore I don’t need to win tonight I only need to stay in sight If you are somewhere calling through I’ll leave the door ajar for you [Final Chorus] I was trapped inside with the voices in my head Now the morning pours gold across the bed And even if they start again I know their words are not the end The light came looking, found me here It didn’t ask me to disappear I was trapped inside, but I’m not dead I was trapped inside, and I’m not dead [Outro] The ceiling keeps its distance The hallway lets me breathe A thin line underneath the doorway Is enough for me