Calm in the Chaos

Lyrics

I miss us. The one thing I love about you most is you don’t give up.. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I know it is. And there’s a reason for all of it. I don’t think we’re meant to understand it, perhaps it prepares us for something bigger.. who knows? I do know you coming into my life has taught me to appreciate things in a very different way… and I’m thankful I got to love you in this lifetime.. whether it’s just friends or whatever we shared in our little bubble.. I’ve always felt safe.. Damn! Good song. Unpacked a lot in that one.. Yeah. What’s the 411 over ther? Headed to San Antonio for work.. Madyson has all the kids.. 🤞🏼 Sierra just left the courthouse.. amending the separation and filing child support… meeting with the trans comp attorney Friday.. so everything is on the air.. How is she amending the separation? What do you mean? Adding no visitation and financial responsibilities and date to today vs Dec 24.. it affects payout.. What the hell Why did she do that a long time ago He has not paid aytingto her this whole time? No. She was told to amend WITH child support .. this was all prior to the incident.. this was the 2024 separation… Been trying to figure out how to get him served since he’s been on ship restrictions… Well that is a joke He is always off the boat and I thought you said he is underway? No he’s been on ship restriction since the Jan incident.. but he’s found ways around it which is why I think this all drove her to suicide.. U on the plane? No just got here.. drove.. only 3 hrs away.. Oh wow! So she wanted to die because he is a piece of shit that is getting over on the system? Y would she want to leave those kids and let them be left People are fucked Someone is def protecting him.. and now this whole SA charge could take months… so no separation in the works until found guilty.. I have no room to talk as I have attempted. But I never tried to take myself out because of someone else And medication changes also played a role… What is she on? Really more so because she’s losing patience with the kids and doing everything alone.. no help, no support.. And then there’s kratom. She still n that? OMG! Not now.. I read a lot on that while at Bayside That shit is really bad Yeah, it’s no joke.. Worse then meth and herion Worse than heroin.. They need to take it off the shelves Its insane So many moms are addicted based on marketing.. it’s sad.. The took it off for a few months then brought it back.. What is being used for? Like what are they saying are the benefits? Sleep, focus, energy, “all natural “ All the things a mom needs.. But it kills people I don’t get it Yeah.. sadly it’s the withdrawals that usually kill them… She was on sabox, and said it made it worse.. On Sabox? What is that Anthony I need a favor. I am broke as a fuck can you please send me $200 I’ll get you back on 6/24 Shit is hella tight right now. I need to pick up my new meds. Im going from 80mg of Straterra to 100mg They 90 day supply is almost $100. And I need some $ for gas and shit. Let me know. Fuck my bad Did not mean for you to see that it was not intended for you Now I feel embarrassed Saboxone And why are you embarrassed? I did not mean to send that Not to you And no I’m off that shit Suboxone That shit fucked me up And I’m just embarrassed about so many different things. I’m literally going to a fucking food bank with Church to get free food right now never been in a place where I had no food or had to go to a fucking church to get free food like it’s a handout. I’ve been staying positive sober everything all while struggling so hard it’s just that bad. I have no money for meds and food. This is horrible. And now you know. Well the last thing you need to feel is embarrassed with me.. been there, done that.. I can send you food if you need… a little tapped at the moment as I just replaced my roof, added gutters , insulated my attic, replaced my fence, and out $5800 on the trip to get these kids so trying to build all that back… but you know I got you when I can.. Holy shit!!! That emergency trip cost that?? That’s crazy. But there is only 6 Who you got rolling with you. You got Paul with you you bail him m out