That's my life

Lyrics

[Verse 1, faster spoken] Let me sing you a little song, while I cry in my room with a blade in my hand and a pill in my palm. You think I'm okay, bitch? I'm fucking great. Numb everything out, I don't feel it anyway. Been lied to, walked on, backstabbed, used. Been beaten, stabbed, mentally abused. Been hit, punched, physically bruised. That's my life, how about you? [Verse 2] You told me you're overwhelmed And I can see it in your eyes You don't know how to help me And God knows that you've tried It's not your job to save me I'm sorry that I made it feel that way So I'll swallow every word now Before it gives me away [Pre-Chorus] I'll try to stay positive Find something good in every day And when you ask me how I'm doing I'll know exactly what to say [Chorus] I'm okay, I'm okay That's the answer that you wanted Put a smile across my face Keep the darker rooms unlighted I can laugh, I can work I can make it look convincing If my silence lets you breathe Then I'll keep the truth from spilling Don't worry about me I'll carry what I can You don't have to understand Just believe me when I say: I'm okay. [Verse 3] Funny how I'm getting better At performing being fine I can talk about tomorrow While I'm fighting with tonight And I really want a future That's the fucked-up honest truth There's a part of me still fighting Even when my head says “lose” [Bridge] Maybe staying positive Doesn't mean I'm finally healed Maybe wanting to keep living Doesn't mean I never bleed Maybe both of them can live here— Hope and hell inside my head I can want to see tomorrow And still struggle through today [Final Chorus] I'm okay, I'm okay Yeah, I'll probably keep on saying it Not because there's nothing wrong I just hate to watch you carrying it So I'll laugh, I'll go to work Find a reason for tomorrow Keep on moving when it hurts Even dragging all this sorrow And maybe I'm not okay— Maybe that's the truth today But I'm still here. I'm still here. And for now, I'll let that stay.