Emergency Exit| A Sinister Sister Creative Production

Lyrics

[Part One] [Intro: Muted Drums, Blurred Electric Piano] I put a smile on the dashboard And drove around the warning lights [Verse 1: Intimate Sing-Rap] I’ve been making little jokes So nobody asks the question Keeping every room distracted From the smoke inside my chest and I know every exit sign In every place I’ve ever been But I never learned the route That gets me out from under skin I say, “I’m fine” Like a ritual Like a password Like a shield If I say it with conviction Maybe one day it gets real I’ve been sleeping with the television Just to hear another voice Leaving messages unopened So I never make a choice [Chorus: Circular, Mantra-Like] There’s an emergency exit inside me I know it’s there I just can’t see There’s a little green light Somewhere behind me Still saying run Still waiting on me There’s an emergency exit inside me Inside me Inside me [Verse 2] I keep souvenirs from bad days Like they prove that I survived Every scar becomes a timestamp Every heartbeat gets archived I’ve been carrying the silence Like a suitcase through the rain Moving cities in my head But every room contains the same Maybe healing isn’t pretty Maybe peace is not a prize Maybe both can look like nothing To the people passing by Maybe getting out is simply Sitting still without a mask Maybe I don’t need the answers Maybe I can stop and ask [Chorus] There’s an emergency exit inside me I know it’s there I just can’t see There’s a little green light Somewhere behind me Still saying run Still waiting on me There’s an emergency exit inside me Inside me Inside me [Beat Dissolves] (Doors opening...) (Pressure dropping...) (Breathe...) [Part Two: Slower, Weightless] [Verse 3: Floating Vocal] I thought escape meant disappearing Leaving nothing in my place But the farther that I traveled The more I wore the same old face So I stopped beside the wreckage Put my hands against the ground Heard a quiet voice beneath me That had always been around It said, “You do not have to vanish You don’t have to lose your name You can leave the burning building Without becoming part of flame” [Refrain] I am still here I am still here Not because it never hurt But because I stayed near I am still here Let the whole sky disappear There’s an emergency exit inside me And I finally found it here [Bridge: Minimal Percussion] Not every locked door is forever Not every dark room is a grave Not every part of me that trembles Is a part I need to save I can bless what kept me breathing Then release what keeps me small I can love the person hiding Without hiding her at all [Final Refrain] I am still here I am still here Not because it never hurt But because I stayed near I am still here Let the whole sky disappear There’s an emergency exit inside me And I finally found it here [Outro: Fading] Inside me Inside me The door was always inside me