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Lyrics

Started with a whisper, ended with goodbye, Nobody asked my side, they only chose a side. Funny how the loudest voice becomes the truth somehow, While I'm left picking up the pieces here and now. You said forever meant forever, Guess forever had an end. Built a home inside your promises, Watched it fall with all my friends. I don't hate the memories, I hate how they had to die. And I still catch myself Looking back sometimes. I just wanted love The way I gave it away. Someone who would stay, Not leave when the sky turned grey. You called me cold, you called me blind, Like I never even tried. I was carrying storms inside With nowhere safe to cry. If the past belongs behind us, Why am I still paying for it now? You all walked away so easy... Tell me, who believes me now? I'm a listener, not a healer, I know that's hard to understand. Nobody ever taught me comfort, So I did the best I can. I learned to hide what hurt me, Lock every feeling up. You can't pour from an empty heart When nobody filled your cup. You laughed until the games got serious, Then suddenly I was the crime. You judged the way I joked around, Like being childish crossed a line. You saw five seconds of my life And wrote a story in your head. You called it proof of who I am... I called it words I never said. Yeah, I read every room before I walk in the door, Learned trust breaks faster than it did before. Playing life like a chessboard, counting every move, Smile on my face, but I'm scared to lose. They say I'm calculating, maybe that's true, When you've been let down enough, what else can you do? I learned to stay guarded, never show the whole hand, 'Cause the ones saying "trust me" were the first ones to ran. But the one I miss isn't even in that crowd. My childhood best friend... I hope you're proud. Back before all the overthinking, Back before every word was weighed. Back when home was just a person, Not another thing that fades. Sometimes I wish we never grew up. Sometimes I wish we never changed. I'd trade every broken friendship Just to hear your laugh again. I just wanted love The way I gave it away. Someone who'd hear my story Before throwing my name away. Maybe I wasn't perfect, Maybe I got things wrong. But no one stopped to know my heart Before deciding I didn't belong. So if the past stays in the past, Then leave it where it fell. I'll carry every lesson... But not the lies you chose to tell. I'll miss the people that I knew, Not the strangers that they became. And if loving means losing myself... I'd rather walk away.