If i'm found dead

Lyrics

IF I’M FOUND DEAD Intro — melancholic piano and soft cello If I’m found dead... you’ll know where to look. Seven years ago, I wrote that note. Not to call for attention. Not because I wanted to die. I wrote it out of fear... out of terror that one day I would be killed here. Verse I Today I read those words again, and time begins to break. I’m not the woman I am now, I’ve become her once again. The one who watched the telephone before daring to reply, the one who heard those keys and felt her whole body tremble inside. I learned to hear the danger hiding somewhere in the dark, in a falling door, in a voice calling out my name. Pre-Chorus Nights wrapped tightly in silence, mornings pretending nothing happened. That is violence too, when peace disappears from your home. When the one who should protect you is the one you must protect yourself from, you learn to make yourself smaller before you see the blow come down. CHORUS — full symphonic metal AND MY BODY WAS NO LONGER MINE! Invaded, humiliated in the dark. How do I ever feel like myself again after everything that left its mark? I would shower just to tear away my skin, look into the mirror and not know who I’d been. Carrying something I never chose, searching through the ashes for a light that still glows. Verse II Violence doesn’t end when the moment disappears. It stays beneath your skin, it becomes the shape of fear. It changes how you sleep, how your whole body reacts, your soul jumps at the sound of footsteps coming back. Searching for an exit in every corner of the room, my mind preparing to escape from a prison with no walls. Seven years have passed, but the body doesn’t know. It doesn’t understand the ending. It only remembers the danger. It only remembers the blow. Always alert. Always on guard. Bridge — piano, cello and emotional guitar I wasn’t broken... I was learning how to survive. They made me question my own voice, my own mind. The violence of the soul doesn’t always leave a bruise, but it can leave you wandering through years of confusion. Saying sorry to the one who destroyed you. Loving and being afraid inside the very same heart. Holding on to the shadow, waiting for it to change... breaking myself a thousand times until I forgot my own name. But now... now I can hear my voice again. FINAL CHORUS — maximum emotional climax AND MY BODY IS BECOMING MINE AGAIN! Even when I still tremble in the dark. I’m gathering every piece that night tried to tear apart. I will not hate my own skin, I will not hide from the morning light. What they did will never tell me who I am. I’m still breathing. I’m still me. And from the ashes of what I was, I find a light... and that light... comes from me. Outro — piano and cello And the world goes on... and I’m still here. I smile for the pictures, I’m learning how to live. But no one sees that I still wear my armor, waiting for a blow that never comes. They say that once you leave the door, everything is finally over... As if fear knows how to leave with you. No. The body takes time to understand freedom. And the soul... takes time to heal.