Splinters In My Smile

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I brush my teeth at 4 p.m Call that a win At least I tried Phone lights up with all my friends I type “I’m fine ” then let it slide Dirty dishes in the sink Feel like proof I’m falling through I cancel plans Blame “one more thing” Truth is I’m scared of being true [Chorus] I’ve got splinters in my smile Tiny cuts you never see Laughing loud for just a while Till the quiet’s killing me If you look past all this coping Past the jokes I weaponize You’d see someone barely hoping Just a storm behind the eyes (yeah) [Verse 2] Doctor says “You’re doing great” Marks a box and shakes my hand I rehearse what I should say Then forget what I had planned Mom keeps sending little prayers Typed in hearts and crying face I say “love you ” change the subject Can’t explain this empty space [Chorus] I’ve got splinters in my smile Tiny cuts you never see Laughing loud for just a while Till the quiet’s killing me If you look past all this coping Past the jokes I weaponize You’d see someone barely hoping Just a storm behind the eyes (oh) [Bridge] Some days I get up Make the bed Wash my hair That’s a mountain That’s enough That’s a way to say “I’m here” You don’t have to fix the cracks Just sit on the floor with me Say “it’s okay to feel like that” Till I start to half believe [Chorus] I’ve got splinters in my smile Tiny cuts you never see Laughing loud for just a while Till the quiet’s killing me If you stay through all this coping Through the nights I want to hide Maybe I’ll be more than hoping Maybe I’ll come back to life (yeah) Just a storm behind the eyes Trying to make it to sunrise