A Car Ride - JohnnieB

Lyrics

( Johnnie B On The Beat ) I just need a car ride with the windows cracked, Little bit of bass and the seat leaned back. Phone on silent, no one hitting me back, Just me and the road while the sky turns black. I don’t need a party, don’t need a crowd, Don’t need fake love getting too damn loud. I need yellow lines and a dark blue cloud, With my old pain fading when the beat drops down. I been overthinking way too much lately, Mind running wild, heart acting crazy. Everybody wants a piece, everybody wants to blame me, But nobody really knows what it takes to save me. So I ride through town where the memories stay, Past old roads where I used to pray. Past the version of me that I buried halfway, Past the bad decisions that I made in the day. I got Big John whispering, “Keep your peace,” Little Johnnie laughing from the backseat. JohnnieB driving through both damn extremes, Trying to find the middle where the night feels clean. I ain’t lost, I’m just taking the scenic, Trying to find a reason in the way that I mean it. Got a scar on my soul, but the music redeems it, And the whole damn car feels like a cathedral when I’m in it. Hook Take a car ride, let the headlights glow, Windows down while the cold wind blows. I don’t know where the hell I’ll go, But I feel more alive when the road moves slow. Take a car ride, turn the pain up loud, Let the bass hit hard till it drowns shit out. I got both sides fighting, but I’m still outside, Trying to feel like me on a midnight drive. Verse 2 I don’t need to crash out, I just need space, Need a full tank and a half-smoked place. Need the moon in the glass and the wind on my face, Need to leave for a while without leaving a trace. This ain’t running away, this is breathing again, This is me talking truth with the road as a friend. This is every old wound getting air through the vent, This is silence saying more than a text ever said. I pass the houses with the porch lights glowing, Wonder how many people got pain they ain’t showing. Wonder how many dreams stay locked and frozen, Wonder how many hearts keep moving while broken. I got a lot on my chest that I don’t say clean, So I cuss in the booth and I bleed through the beat. I laugh when I’m hurting, I smile through teeth, That’s JohnnieB, bitch, human underneath. I’m not just anger, I’m not just grace, I’m not just the smile or the pain in my face. I’m the man in the middle with a foot on the brake, Trying not to let the dark side choose my fate. So I ride past the fields, past the city lights, Past the old me starting unnecessary fights. Past the heartbreak, past the sleepless nights, Past the wrong damn turns that still taught me right. I got songs in my head and a storm in my chest, Got a prayer in my heart and a curse on my breath. Got a dream so alive it won’t let me rest, So I drive till the road pulls weight off my neck. Hook Take a car ride, let the headlights glow, Windows down while the cold wind blows. I don’t know where the hell I’ll go, But I feel more alive when the road moves slow. Take a car ride, turn the pain up loud, Let the bass hit hard till it drowns shit out. I got both sides fighting, but I’m still outside, Trying to feel like me on a midnight drive. Verse 3 Sometimes a car ride feels like therapy, No couch, no notes, just air and a melody. No one asking why I am the way I be, Just the whole damn night riding next to me. I can be urban, suburban, both lanes true, Backroad soul with a city-light view. One side holy, one side loose, Whole damn heart still learning what to do. I don’t need the world to understand my mind, I just need a little road and a little more time. Need a hook in the speakers and a yellow-line sign, Need to let every thought fall into rhyme. This is for the ones who drive when they feel too much, When the room gets small and the pressure builds up. When the phone feels heavy and the heart feels stuck, When you gotta leave the house before you lose your touch. Turn the key, hit the street, let the tires talk, Let the night air cool what the day pissed off. Let the rearview hold what you finally lost, Let the windshield show what the pain never stopped. I’m still here, still rolling, still breathing, Still got faith even when I’m uneven. Still got demons, but I don’t feed ’em, I just take another drive when I need freedom. Hook Take a car ride, let the headlights glow, Windows down while the cold wind blows. I don’t know where the hell I’ll go, But I feel more alive when the road moves slow. Take a car ride, turn the pain up loud, Let the bass hit hard till it drowns shit out. I got both sides fighting, but I’m still outside, Trying to feel like me on a midnight drive.