Mirage of the Merry-Go-Round

Lyrics

(Verse 1) You attach like a leech, sucking blood from my veins Claiming you love me while causing the pain An emotional roller coaster, the highs and the lows Cheating left and right, everywhere that you go But I’m smart, yeah I’m sharp, and I see through the game I recognize the pattern, I know your real name When I call out your bullshit, your fury ignites You scream and you rage through the dark of the nights. (Chorus) Until you live with a narcissistic, compulsive cheater, You’ll never understand the fire of the creature. You’ll never know the weight of the life that they drain, Living in the shadows of a madman’s game. Yeah, until you live with a narcissistic, compulsive cheater, You’ll never understand the fire of the creature. (Verse 2) Then you call to apologize, showing up at my door But I’m over the words, I don’t care anymore So I switch to the silence, I lock up my jaw And my quietness breaks you, the worst thing you saw You yell that I’m digging up things from the past That I don’t know how to move on or make a good thing last But I’m living in the present, while you play the same track Doing the exact same bullshit, behind my back. (Chorus) Until you live with a narcissistic, compulsive cheater, You’ll never understand the fire of the creature. You’ll never know the weight of the life that they drain, Living in the shadows of a madman’s game. Yeah, until you live with a narcissistic, compulsive cheater, You’ll never understand the fire of the creature. (Bridge) You flip the script, smear your sins onto me To make yourself the victim that you want them to see You turn me to the villain, but my rage is now cold Every smile that they see is a front to behold A mirage of the happy, a beautiful lie You’re a vampire draining my soul till it's dry. I opened up the gates wide, I told you to leave But you stay like a curse that I’ll never relieve And every time I try to give you an ounce of my trust God drops down the proof and it turns into dust. (Verse 3) You say it's a merry-go-round that I’m trapped in inside But you are the ride where the carousel died You play me like a circus, the center of attraction Making me the clown for your sick satisfaction Verbal abuse, physical scars, throwing rage in my face Then you claim you didn't do it, trying to erase The broken record keeps spinning, the cycle repeats But the clown is now waking, and she won’t accept defeat. (Chorus) Until you live with a narcissistic, compulsive cheater, You’ll never understand the fire of the creature. You’ll never know the weight of the life that they drain, Living in the shadows of a madman’s game. Yeah, until you live with a narcissistic, compulsive cheater, You’ll never understand the fire of the creature. (Outro) The silence is loud now. I don't want to speak. The anger is fuel now, no longer weak. Keep your apologies. The vampire is done. The curtain is falling... and the clown has won.