Learning How to Come Back Home

Lyrics

[Verse 1] The kettle clicks, I count the tiles Your jacket hangs beside the door A truck backfires three blocks away And I am somewhere else once more I know this room, I know your face I know the year, the day, the name But every nerve pulls at the brake As if the past has found me again [Pre-Chorus] You don't ask me to explain You just sit and say my name [Chorus] I'm learning how to come back home One breath, one wall, one inch of floor The alarm can ring and still be wrong The door is locked, the night is gone If I go quiet, stay close by Don't pull me through, just hold the light I'm not the worst thing I survived I'm here, I'm here tonight [Verse 2] I keep the hallway lamp awake A small gold circle by the stairs Some nights my hands forget they're safe And search for danger in the air I tell the truth in careful pieces To someone trained to hear the hurt We name the things that still have power Then give them smaller names at first [Pre-Chorus] You don't promise I'll forget You remind me I'm not there yet [Chorus] I'm learning how to come back home One breath, one wall, one inch of floor The alarm can ring and still be wrong The door is locked, the night is gone If I go quiet, stay close by Don't pull me through, just hold the light I'm not the worst thing I survived I'm here, I'm here tonight [Bridge] Some mornings taste like metal Some mornings let me sleep Healing isn't a straight line It's a promise I can keep I can leave the window open I can laugh and not feel guilty The life I thought was stolen Is still reaching out to me [Final Chorus] I'm learning how to come back home With both feet planted on the floor The alarm can ring and still be wrong The door is locked, the night is gone If I go quiet, stay close by I know the way back this time I'm more than what I had to fight I'm here, I'm here tonight [Outro] The kettle clicks, the morning starts Your jacket hangs beside the door I take one breath, then take one more