Toxic Paradise Blues

Lyrics

(Verse 1)
I came out here to breathe, to forget what we were,
Traded cold nights for palm trees and surf.
But your voice still echoes in every damn word,
Like I’m haunted by love I ain’t even deserve.

You broke me down slow, with a smile on your face,
Told me I was nothin’, then called it a phase.
Gaslightin’ me daily, had me question my brain,
Now I flinch at the truth like it’s gonna cause pain.

I moved to escape, but the damage stayed packed,
Buried under beach days and Spotify tracks.
This place is a dream, but I’m trapped in the past—
Can’t heal when the scars still talk back that fast.

(Chorus)
It’s a beautiful cage, with a view so wide,
But I’m locked in the war that you left inside.
Yeah, the sun still shines, but I see it through smoke,
You ruined my mind, now I’m tryna let go.
You smiled while you broke me, slow and cold,
Now I’m stuck in paradise with no control.

(Verse 2)
You said love, but your love came with rules,
Like I couldn’t speak up or I’d look like a fool.
Made me doubt every thought, every move that I made,
Now I’m scared of connection, I push it away.

I’ve been tryin’ to trust, but the wires are crossed,
People say “heal,” but they don’t know the cost.
’Cause when someone you love turns into a ghost,
And they’re still in your head—that’s what hurts the most.

I walk past the waves, but I feel like I’m drownin’,
Fake smile on my face, while my chest keeps poundin’.
This ain’t peace, it’s a quiet kinda rage—
Tryna find who I was before you twisted the page.

(Chorus)
It’s a beautiful cage, with a view so wide,
But I’m locked in the war that you left inside.
Yeah, the sun still shines, but I see it through smoke,
You ruined my mind, now I’m tryna let go.
You smiled while you broke me, slow and cold,
Now I’m stuck in paradise with no control.

(Bridge)
This ain’t closure, it’s survival mode,
Tryna fix a mind you left eroded.
I don’t hate you—I hate what you did,
Took a strong grown man, made him feel like a kid.

(Outro)
So here I am, with the ocean and pain,
Still standing in sun but soaked in rain.
Yeah, I left you behind, but the damage remains,
In this beautiful place… with your voice in my brain.