Infinitum

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I wake with yesterday’s verdict still stuck in my teeth Cold ceiling fan counts sins above me while the clock beneath Mind’s a courthouse, gavel echoes, no jury, just me Defendant and the DA, trading blows in soliloquy Each sunrise feels recycled, same indictment on repeat I plead to memory’s warden but the bars are my heartbeat Every hello I extend turns witness for the prosecution They walk away but their ghost keeps pacing my confusion [Pre-Chorus] Conversation dies, but the eulogy in my skull revives I bury it with silence, it digs back up, still alive Clamor throws a party when the room goes quiet on me Peace don’t visit often, only mails a postcard occasionally [Hook] Same day on the docket, same gavel in my chest I serve the time before the morning’s even dressed Pray for a mistrial in the temple of my head But the sentence stands until the static leaves for bed [Verse 2] I replay my missteps like a film I never chose to direct Scene cuts to self-accusation, fade in more regret My thoughts run transcripts, redacting all relief I feel like a murder of the man I meant to be Then trial by inner fire, no defense attorney Then sentencing to solitude, shackled to this routine Same twenty-four, reissued, with the serial scratched clean [Pre-Chorus] Strangers pass and drop a line that loops until it’s bent Their shadow talks long after their real presence went I beg for strange thoughts, any detour, any glitch To break the reel before the shame can re-pitch [Hook] One deep breath slips past the guards inside my ribcage Still the warden’s footsteps echo down the same hallway I chase a pardon hidden somewhere past this mental page But every exit door just circles back to yesterday [Bridge] Blessed for brief serene seconds when the static clears A breath without a burden, a moment free of years Then the loop loads again, same day, same dock, same plea Guilty of remembering, sentenced to infinity [Hook] If quiet is a mercy, it visits like a thief Steals the noise a second, leaves behind belief That one clean thought could break the court I keep But the gavel falls again before I fall asleep