Silence in the Hall

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I’m almost thirty-nine Still in my old room Mama on the next wall And I’m stuck in the fumes You begged me to wake up To pay my own way I called it your pressure Then I watched you drift away I hid behind my anger Like it was a shield You held up the mirror I still couldn’t feel [Pre-Chorus] You said, “Take the wheel” I said, “I’m fine, I’m fine” You saw right through the lies Now I can’t rewind I turned every truth to dust Every sorry to a joke Till your voice got tired And your heart let go [Chorus] Now it’s silence in the hall Silence in the hall I used to hear you call Now it’s silence in the hall You were my last chance My hardest lesson Silence in the hall And I’m the one left questioning [Verse 2] Three years of “tomorrow” Three years of “not yet” Three years of me swearing I’d be better than my threats We fought in the kitchen We made up in tears Then I’d break my promise Like I broke all those years You carried my shame Like it was yours to hold I called it love But I was cold You asked for the truth I gave you a scene You asked for a man And I gave you a boy in his thirties [Pre-Chorus] You said, “Own your life” I said, “Don’t push so hard” I made you the villain When I was torn apart I see it now How I kept score You kept trying to save me Then you tried no more [Chorus] Now it’s silence in the hall Silence in the hall I used to hear you call Now it’s silence in the hall You were my last chance My hardest lesson Silence in the hall And I’m the one left questioning [Bridge] I miss the fights More than I should At least you were there And I knew I was no good Now the house goes still And it cuts too deep I reach for a version of me That I let slip in my sleep No blame can hold this No lie can clean I lost the woman Who kept trying to believe in me [Final Chorus] Now it’s silence in the hall Silence in the hall I used to hear you call Now it’s silence in the hall You were my last chance My hardest lesson Silence in the hall And I’m the one left questioning Silence in the hall I should’ve changed it all Silence in the hall Now I hear nothing at all