Lyrics
Menstrual stains all over sheets that will never come clean,
False lashes and glue scattered 'round the chaotic scene.
Closet doors wide open, clothes strewn without care, frantic—
The room mirrors the mess in me, disheveled, panicked.
I want to move, but I can’t—stuck, paralyzed, yearning,
The motor inside won't start, no matter the burning.
Why can't I get up, why can't I go where I need?
I want to show up shining, though I’m failing to lead.
What is this feeling buried deep, so hard to define?
My mind wrestles shadows, the struggle feels mine.
Unproductive obsessions, wasting my days away,
Darkness comes in each puff, each crystal leads astray.
I want to go back, save the girl, reclaim her grace,
Or maybe find that missing piece, that familiar place.