Out of My Head

Lyrics

[Intro – whispered] Another night… Another fucking conversation Inside my head. What did they say? What do they think? What did I do wrong this time? [Verse 1] I wake up with their voices Already inside my skull Every choice becomes a weapon Every answer makes me crawl I keep dissecting every sentence Every look, every mistake Trying to become somebody That nobody can hate I'm suffocating Under words I never heard Living in the shadows Of somebody else's world [Pre-Chorus] And I can't breathe I can't sleep I can't silence what they think Every fucking day I give another piece of me away. [CHORUS – SCREAMED] GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD! You don't know what I've been through You don't know what I had to lose SAY MY NAME! SPIT YOUR LIES! Go ahead and crucify Every choice I made to survive I'M NOT YOUR FUCKING STORY! I'M NOT WHO YOU DECIDE! You can tear me down forever BUT YOU DON'T GET TO DEFINE ME! [Verse 2] I'm terrified of tomorrow 'Cause tomorrow comes with eyes Watching every move I make Waiting for me to compromise What if I choose wrong? What if I fall apart? What if the person I become Is nothing like I planned? So I keep myself in pieces Just to keep the peace alive But I'm dying from the effort Of pretending I'm alright [Pre-Chorus] And I can't breathe I can't sleep I'm drowning underneath Every fucking word That was never even mine to keep. [CHORUS – SCREAMED] GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD! You don't know what I've been through You don't know what I had to lose SAY MY NAME! SPIT YOUR LIES! Go ahead and crucify Every choice I made to survive I'M NOT YOUR FUCKING STORY! I'M NOT WHO YOU DECIDE! You can tear me down forever BUT YOU DON'T GET TO DEFINE ME! [Bridge – quiet, broken] Maybe I'm afraid… Maybe I'm a mess… Maybe I don't know What comes next. But I'm still here. Still here. [Build – increasingly screamed] And maybe that's enough. I don't need your permission. I don't need your forgiveness. I don't need to explain Every fucking breath I take. I AM DONE. [BREAKDOWN – SCREAMED] I AM DONE BEING AFRAID! I AM DONE CARRYING YOUR BLAME! I AM DONE CHANGING WHO I AM JUST SO YOU CAN SAY MY NAME! You want a version of me That never makes mistakes? THAT PERSON DOESN'T FUCKING EXIST! [FINAL CHORUS – HUGE] GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD! You can talk until you're empty You can judge me till I'm dead SAY MY NAME! SPIT YOUR LIES! I won't spend another lifetime Trying to live through your eyes I'M NOT YOUR FUCKING STORY! I'M NOT WHO YOU DECIDE! I'm terrified of tomorrow BUT I'LL FACE IT AS MYSELF TONIGHT! YOU DON'T GET TO DEFINE ME! [Outro – whispered] I don't know what's coming. I'm still scared. But it's my life. And this time… I'm keeping it.