STILL HERE (YOU ALL MOVED ON)

Lyrics

[INTRO] [PART SPOKEN/SUNG] [BG VOX: distant city hum, late bus brakes, muffled laughter far away] [SPOKEN:] Group chat pinging, all of you out somewhere loud [SPOKEN:] Same city, different lives, I’m not in that crowd [SUNG:] Phone face down on the cracked bedside [SUNG:] I’m still here bleeding where the pain can’t hide [VERSE 1] [PART RAP] You lot levelling up, new jobs, new whips I’m in a one-bed box tryna patch these rips Timeline flex, cocktails, rooftop glow I’m on the mattress, chest tight, moving slow Heart got smashed, no aftercare plan Therapist waitlist, no space for this man You all say “shout me” then ghost for weeks I’m stuck replaying every word I can’t speak Kitchen light humming like a warning tone Four walls loud when you’re sat here alone Yeah, you bounce to the beat in some warehouse rave I’m counting every breath, tryna be brave [PRE-CHORUS] [PART SUNG] [BG VOX: low “all alone”, “still here”] [SUNG:] You don’t see the cracks in my voice at night [SUNG:] You don’t feel the panic when I kill that light [SUNG:] You don’t hear my chest when the fear kicks near [SUNG:] I’m still here healing, but no one’s near [CHORUS] [PART SUNG/RAP] [SUNG:] You all moved on and I’m still here [SUNG:] Same estate sky, same heavy fear [SUNG:] Your lives got louder, mine stayed small [SUNG:] I’m screaming for help with my back to the wall [SPOKEN:] You post that shit like everything’s blessed [SPOKEN:] I’m on the floor, heart ripped out my chest [SUNG:] You all moved on and I’m still here [SUNG:] Still here, still here, still here [HOOK] [PART SUNG] [BG VOX: chopped male “still here, still here”] [SUNG:] Ooh, ooh, ooh, you all moved on [VOX CHOPS: “moved on, moved on”] [SUNG:] Ooh, ooh, ooh, I’m holding on [BG VOX: “don’t fade, don’t fade”] [SUNG:] Ooh, ooh, ooh, this hurt runs deep [VOX CHOPS: “still here, still here”] [SUNG:] Ooh, ooh, ooh, no rest, no sleep [DROP] [INSTRUMENTAL BREAK – 16 BARS, DEEP SUB, CHOPS “still here, you all moved on”] [VERSE 2] [PART RAP] You got Sunday brunch, bottomless chat I got cold takeaways, half-dead flat Your selfies shine in some neon bar My mirror shows scars that still feel raw Doctor said “time” like that’s some cure Said “reach out, mate” but I’m not so sure ‘Cause last time I spoke, you went back to your phone Left my heavy words hanging in this tone I ain’t jealous, just tired of this split screen life Your highlight reels vs my quiet knife Still, the kick drum slaps in my cheap headphones Only place I don’t feel totally alone [PRE-CHORUS] [PART SUNG] [BG VOX: “hold tight, hold tight”] [SUNG:] You don’t see me shake when the flashbacks hit [SUNG:] You don’t feel my hands when they clench and split [SUNG:] You don’t taste the tears in this empty room [SUNG:] I’m healing in the dark while your flowers bloom [CHORUS] [PART SUNG/RAP] [SUNG:] You all moved on and I’m still here [SUNG:] Same flat, same ghosts, same burning fear [SUNG:] Your doors flew open, mine stayed shut [SUNG:] I’m stitching up a heart that got cut [SPOKEN:] I ain’t asking for a medal or a fucking parade [SPOKEN:] Just someone to sit when the lights start to fade [SUNG:] You all moved on and I’m still here [SUNG:] Still here, still here, still here [HOOK] [PART SUNG] [BG VOX: rough male choir pad, “still here, still here”] [SUNG:] New day loading through a cracked blind line [SUNG:] Healing moves slow but the sun still shines [SUNG:] I whisper my name like a quiet prayer [SUNG:] “Don’t give up now, you’re still right there” [SUNG:] From the block to the bridge to the river’s turn [SUNG:] One step at a time, let the heartbeat learn [SUNG:] I’m not alright yet but I won’t disappear [SUNG:] You all moved on, I’m still here [INSTRUMENTAL BREAK] [INSTRUMENTAL BREAK – 16 BARS, EUPHORIC DEEP HOUSE LIFT, CHOPS “you all moved on / still here”] [BRIDGE] [PART RAP/SUNG] One friend left on read, one seen, no reply [BG VOX: “no reply, no reply”] Scrolling through pics like “who the fuck am I?” I stand at the window with the estate lights low Thinking ’bout the boy from before this blow [SUNG:] I put my hand on the glass, feel the night-time air [SUNG:] Tell that broken version “I’m still right there” Rave in the distance, bass in the breeze I breathe in slow, drop down to my knees [SUNG:] I won’t lie down and just fade away [SUNG:] I’m still here, still here, come what may [CHORUS] [PART SUNG/RAP] [SUNG:] You all moved on and I’m still here [SUNG:] One lonely spark in a sky not clear [SUNG:] From the night bus hum to the sunrise hue [SUNG:] I’m holding my ground, whatever I’ve been through [SPOKEN:] If you ever look back and you feel that pull [SPOKEN:] Know I fought like fuck just to stay half-full [SUNG:] You all moved on and I’m still here [SUNG:] Still here, still here, still here [OUTRO] [PART SPOKEN/SUNG] [BG VOX: soft “still here, still here”, distant sirens fade] [SPOKEN:] Same old city waking up outside [SPOKEN:] I’m not fixed yet, but I’ve not died [SPOKEN:] Maybe one day you’ll see what this