Boots By The Door

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I came home lean and mean With a duffel bag and a busted dream Got sand in my boots And a name I don't use Ma said son you made it back I stood there stiff like a loaded trap Couldn't hug right Couldn't sleep right [Verse 2] The screen door slammed like a far-off shell Every little sound puts me back in hell The dryer hum Turns my gut to mud I wash my hands till they burn red raw Still see that road in the bathroom wall I shake, I lie I don't know why [Pre-Chorus] I tried to be the man Tried to take that hand But my chest goes hard And my mind runs far Don't ask me to explain I don't got a clean way I'm standing here But I'm not all here [Chorus] Boots by the door I don't sleep no more Boots by the door I'm still at war (Still at war) Boots by the door I don't sleep no more If you hear me fall Don't slam that door [Verse 3] Grocery store line, I watch the floor Flinch at a cart, then I want some more Of the dark old crowd Of the fear on loud County fair lights and a pop song tune Send my head back to a dust-bit room I grab my jaw And I leave the hall [Verse 4] Told the doc it's all okay But the lie sat heavy in a paper tray He wrote me calm Like a prayer on form My little boy crawls on my lap at night I hold him close, then I grip too tight I want to say I'm here to stay [Pre-Chorus] I tried to be the man Tried to take that hand But my chest goes hard And my mind runs far Don't ask me to explain I don't got a clean way I'm standing here But I'm not all here [Chorus] Boots by the door I don't sleep no more Boots by the door I'm still at war (Still at war) Boots by the door I don't sleep no more If you hear me fall Don't slam that door [Bridge] I used to know my own face Now it feels like borrowed space I got a heart full of mud And a fist full of grace If I shout, baby, don't run I'm just fighting what I've become Come sit near I still got fear [Final Chorus] Boots by the door I don't sleep no more Boots by the door I'm still at war (Still at war) Boots by the door I don't sleep no more If you hear me fall Don't slam that door Boots by the door I don't sleep no more Boots by the door I'm still at war (Still at war) Boots by the door I don't sleep no more If you hear me fall Don't slam that door