Breathe in a Room Without You

Lyrics

[Intro] I kept your voicemail saved under a different name Like hiding one small fire could keep me warm again [Verse 1] Your blue sweater still hangs by the kitchen door I reach for it sometimes, then remember what for The rent's due Friday, your mug's in the sink I count every crack in it instead of sleep You said, "Don't make a home out of somebody's leaving" I nodded like I understood what you were meaning Now every quiet room has your shape in the chair And I talk to the air like you're almost there [Pre-Chorus] I tried to drown the memory in work and noise But the smallest things still carry your voice One last message, one last excuse I keep losing myself trying not to lose you [Chorus] If I let you go, why am I still holding on? Why does your name feel heavy when the whole day's gone? I built these walls, but they don't keep out the truth I am learning how to breathe in a room without you [Drop] Without you, without you The floor gives way beneath my shoes Without you, without you I lose the parts I gave to you [Verse 2] Found our receipt in the pocket of my winter coat Two coffees, one train, and a promise we broke You laughed at the cashier, I stared at the rain Funny how a paper slip can reopen a vein I know you moved on, and I hope that it's kind I hope somebody listens when you change your mind I hope they don't make you explain every scar I hope they know exactly how lucky they are [Bridge] Maybe love is not a lock, maybe it's a door Maybe what we had was meant to teach me more I can miss you without asking you to return I can hold the match and still refuse to burn [Final Chorus] If I let you go, why am I still holding on? Why does your name feel heavy when the whole day's gone? I built these walls, but they don't keep out the truth I am learning how to breathe in a room without you [Outro] Your blue sweater still hangs by the kitchen door I leave it there, but I don't reach anymore