Loved Myself Thin

Lyrics

You loved me so much, I forgot to love myself And losing you felt like losing someone else ’Cause every time I tried to get close There was always somebody between us You were talking to her While I was trying to make it work And I kept telling myself it was harmless Just so it wouldn’t hurt I remember every detail The way your jacket smelled like smoke The crack in your voice when you were tired And the jokes only we would know I could tell when something weighed on you Before you’d ever say a word But after everything I knew about you You’re still the question that hurts What you left me with was love And a whole lot of it Just missing all the broken pieces That could’ve made us fit You said I was strong, then called me sensitive So which one is it? You always left me guessing Somewhere between your words What you left me with was love And a whole lot of it It’s like time tried to save us Year after year But you left me bleeding And that’s what hurts to admit Because loving you was such a blessing I loved myself thin for it Maybe that’s the cruelest part How something beautiful can sting How someone can feel like home And still leave you with nowhere to go I kept every version of you Even the ones that let me go And some nights I miss you most After everything you put me through Maybe I don’t even miss the pain Maybe I just miss your name The way it sounded when it was mine And I wasn’t afraid Maybe I don’t miss who you became Or all the things you couldn’t be Maybe I just miss the girl I was When you were choosing me What you left me with was love And a whole lot of it Enough to last long after you Enough that I still feel it You said I was strong, then called me sensitive And I still don’t know which But I know I gave you everything And somehow that was it Maybe that’s the cruelest part How something beautiful can sting And maybe I don’t miss the heartbreak I just miss saying your name Like it belonged to me And only me.