awerysopelea - When Silence Was Safe

Lyrics

[Verse 1] There was a time I could lie beside somebody and not wonder where their mind had gone No hidden meaning in a quiet room no second voice beneath the words I never counted pauses never studied every change never tried to find the moment something started feeling strange I didn't know how peaceful trust could be until it wasn't there [Pre-Chorus] Now every silence has a shadow every distance has a name and I hate how something gentle learned to sound so much like pain [Chorus] I miss when silence was safe when nothing needed explaining when I could close my eyes without my mind translating every breath every space every little change I don't think I miss you I miss when silence was safe [Post-Chorus] Before goodbye could hide inside a quiet room [Verse 2] Someone can hold me and some part of me still waits for them to let me go Someone can mean it when they say they're staying and I still hear an undertone That's the part nobody sees the leaving doesn't leave it teaches every future moment how to look like something leaving And maybe that's what hurts the most you ended once but something in me keeps ending you [Pre-Chorus] So I read between the sentences until there isn't anything just a thousand little warnings that were never really there [Chorus] I miss when silence was safe when nothing needed explaining when I could close my eyes without my mind translating every breath every space every little change I don't think I miss you I miss when silence was safe [Instrumental Rise] [Low piano continues] [Drums disappear] [One guitar line carries the chorus melody] [Vocal returns almost alone] [Break] Maybe I gave you too much power calling something home because you were inside it Maybe safe was never you maybe it was me before I learned to doubt it Maybe what I'm grieving isn't someone I once knew Maybe it's the person who could love without preparing to lose [Build] I want that person back not you I want that person back [Bridge] The one who didn't need the lights on just to know that no one left the one who never searched a heartbeat for the things it hadn't said the one who slept through midnight without waking up afraid that love had changed its mind while they were sleeping Somewhere along the way I mistook being careful for being safe [Final Chorus] I remember when silence was safe when nothing needed explaining when I could close my eyes without my whole world changing every breath every space didn't carry someone's name And maybe I don't miss you maybe I miss who I became before every open door looked like an escape before love meant waiting for the shape of goodbye I remember I remember when silence was safe [Outro] [Everything falls away] Maybe someday it will be again.