Borrowed Heart

Lyrics

[Verse 1] You called from the hospital, I watched it ring Had my own small disaster, made it everything Your birthday card stayed facedown by the sink I said I’d get there soon, then gave myself a week [Pre-Chorus] I kept a list of reasons To make your hurt wait Every door you opened I found a way to close it late [Chorus] I’m the friend who disappears When the room gets hard to breathe I take your trust like oxygen Then act surprised when you can’t reach me You gave me every honest part I answered with a borrowed heart Now I know what I became A familiar face that only brings you pain [Verse 2] You learned to edit every story that you told Cut out the parts where you were scared and losing hold I called it giving space, but I was saving mine You carried both our silence while I called myself kind [Pre-Chorus] I wore my good intentions Like armor in the rain But underneath the metal I was choosing me again [Chorus] I’m the friend who disappears When the room gets hard to breathe I take your trust like oxygen Then act surprised when you can’t reach me You gave me every honest part I answered with a borrowed heart Now I know what I became A familiar face that only brings you pain [Breakdown] Say it plain No defense I was there Only when it made sense You begged for one hand I offered advice Then left you alone To survive the night I’m not misunderstood I understood you perfectly And still made you feel alone [Bridge] If you never call again I’ll have no right to ask you why Some apologies are just another way To keep a person in your life So I’ll leave the door unlocked And let the consequence come in You deserved a better friend Than the one I’ve always been [Final Chorus] I’m the friend who disappeared When you needed me to stay I turned your worst days into proof That I was busy, tired, afraid You gave me every honest part I answered with a borrowed heart Now I know what I became A familiar face that only brings you pain [Outro] I won’t call this growth Until I learn to show up I won’t call this guilt A reason to give up If your silence is the cost Of every time I let you down Then I’ll carry what I did Without asking you around