Broken Vinyl on High Street

Lyrics

I’ve been reflecting for some time, and it’s been difficult for me to understand. When you’re not around, I feel calm, focused, and at peace. I miss you dearly always, but when we’re together, everything becomes chaotic. I start feeling unhappy, lost, and overwhelmed. I know this might seem confusing, and I’m truly sorry for the way it’s affecting us. I care for you deeply, but there’s something in me that gets triggered when we’re together. It brings up past wounds and emotions I struggle with, and I find it hard to manage them. I know it’s about how I react and what gets stirred up in me. I feel like I’m holding onto something unhealthy for me, and it’s making things harder for both of us. I don’t want to hurt you anymore, and it’s painful for me to live this way. When I open myself up to you, I feel a surge of emotions I can’t control, and I don’t know how to navigate them. I love you in a way I’ve never loved anyone before, but with that love also comes pain and bitterness I’ve never experienced before. I’m not sure if I can work through these feelings while we continue to go back and forth. Maybe it’s time for me to take a step back permanently, with the hope that one day, when we’ve both had time to grow, our paths might cross again. This is painful because I truly love you. This is not what I want, but I don’t know how to break this painful chain.