Godspeed Through the Wreckage

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Been on my knees so long my jeans got calloused at the seams Mama said "you fight those demons" I just learned to feed my dreams Hand-me-downs Hand-me-up scars Same house, different slammed doors She prayed upstairs I raged out back punchin' holes in the porch boards Dad's voice in a voicemail "I'll call you back" then it cut dead Heard that static in my skull every time I try to love, it spreads Leftover food Empty chairs Birthdays we pretended were jokes I got good at actin' fine while every word I spit was smoke I don't trust my own reflection It just stares like it knows every fight, every bottle every secret I chose But somewhere under all this hurt somethin' small still speaks like "you ain't what they did to you" just a war that God ain't finished yet [Chorus] I was broken in the back row cryin' out, but no one stayed Now I'm standin' in the front line bleeding truth through every phrase If the world wants war then let it come to me, come to me I got Godspeed through the wreckage watch me rise on busted knees I was drownin' in the shadow cold and shakin', beggin' "please" Now I'm burnin' like an arrow flyin' straight through every fear If the dark wants more then let it come for me, come for me I got Godspeed through the wreckage He gon' carry me, carry me [Verse 2] I was the punchline kid Too poor for the field trip Hand-me-ink on my notebook turnin' pain into real scripts Every classroom felt like prison Fluorescents buzzin' on my doubt They laughed at "rapper dreams" so I mapped my own way out Had a blade on the bathroom sink just watchin' my wrist, think "One push, one slip" but my phone lit, one ping "Yo, you good?" from the homie I barely knew Funny how a random text held my soul like superglue Now I’m joggin’ through the memories like they hurdles in my lane Every rumor, every rumor became rocket fuel, became flame You say I’m too much anger I say you ain’t seen my peace ‘Cause every time I do collapse I feel a hand under my feet, like [Chorus] I was broken in the back row cryin' out, but no one stayed Now I'm standin' in the front line bleeding truth through every phrase If the world wants war then let it come to me, come to me I got Godspeed through the wreckage watch me rise on busted knees I was drownin' in the shadow cold and shakin', beggin' "please" Now I'm burnin' like an arrow flyin' straight through every fear If the dark wants more then let it come for me, come for me I got Godspeed through the wreckage He gon' carry me, carry me (yeah) [Bridge] [Beat flips into chaotic, double-time drums] Look— I remember bein' fifteen, sippin' cheap caffeine starin' at the ceilin', feelin' every little villain in my bloodstream screamin' "you’ll be nothin'" Now they watchin' when I breathe I got trauma tryna track me while my faith is gainin' speed I’ve been stitchin' all my triggers into patterns I can read Turnin' every panic into bars that make you bleed You can keep your crooked crown I was buried in the ground Now I’m growlin' with a vow I ain't bowin', not now Talk down on my name? You just add to the fire Every doubt that you throw just a step, just a wire I walk tightropes over graves with His hand on my spine You see rage