Demons

Lyrics

SEEING DEMONS Dark piano • • Emotional guitar • Pain vocals [Intro — Whispered, ] I been seeing things I can’t explain lately… Tryna tell ‘em I’m okay, but they don’t believe me… Lord, if You can hear me, come and save me… ’Cause every time I close my eyes, these demons come and take me… [Chorus — Melodic, Emotional] I been seeing demons when the lights go out, Got a war inside my head, I can’t fight it now Everybody hear me laughing, don’t know I’m breaking down, I got so much pain inside, I can’t let it make a sound. Shadows in the hallway, I can feel ‘em creeping, Heart racing at night, I ain’t hardly sleeping I been praying to the Lord, asking Him for a reason, Why the hell I see the darkness even when the sun is beaming? Ohhh, I need help, I can’t keep pretending, Every time I find some peace, another nightmare begins I been fighting with myself, I don’t know who’s gonna win, I’m afraid of what I’m becoming, I just wanna live again… [Verse 1 — Storytelling, Tight Rhymes] Three in the morning, I’m awake with my thoughts, Trying to count all my blessings, but I’m stuck on my losses Got a heart full of wounds, I been hiding the scars, I put a smile on my face, still at war in the dark. I see shadows in the corner when I’m sitting alone, Every creak in the floor make me check through my home I keep reaching for my phone, but don’t know who to call, ‘Cause the people I would die for don’t pick up when I fall. My mind like a courtroom, my memories the jury, Every mistake that I made keep returning to hurt me Guilt sitting front row, pain sitting beside it, I keep telling everybody I’m okay, but I’m lying. I got demons in my past trying to drag me behind, Got tomorrow looking cloudy, got no peace in my mind I been running from the hurt, but it’s keeping my stride, You can change your whole address, can’t leave your soul behind. And I hate when they tell me, “Boy, you just need to pray,” I’ve been down on both my knees, still got something to say Maybe God ain’t turned His back, maybe I’m lost in the rain, But I’m tired of being strong when I’m drowning in pain. [Pre-Chorus — Voice Cracking] Can You hear me? ‘Cause I’m calling and I’m falling apart… Can You see me? There’s a war going on in my heart… I don’t wanna lose my mind, I don’t wanna lose my soul… Everybody sees a grown man, Nobody sees him losing control… [Chorus — Bigger Vocals, Background Harmonies] I been seeing demons when the lights go out, Got a war inside my head, I can’t fight it now Everybody hear me laughing, don’t know I’m breaking down, I got so much pain inside, I can’t let it make a sound. Shadows in the hallway, I can feel ‘em creeping, Heart racing at night, I ain’t hardly sleeping I been praying to the Lord, asking Him for a reason, Why the hell I see the darkness even when the sun is beaming? Ohhh, I need help, I can’t keep pretending, Every time I find some peace, another nightmare begins I been fighting with myself, I don’t know who’s gonna win, I’m afraid of what I’m becoming, I just wanna live again… [Verse 2 — Darker, More Personal] I made friends with my pain, now we sit at the table, Got a head full of thoughts that I don’t feel I’m able To explain to the people who keep saying I’m stable, They see me standing on my feet, don’t see me barely able. I been carrying regrets like a cross on my back, Every time I take a step, feel the past pull me back I put my trust in some people, got betrayed by the facts, Now I question every hand that reaches out when I’m trapped. What if all of my anger is just grief in disguise? What if all of my laughter is a beautiful lie? What if all of these nights that I spent asking God why Were me begging for some peace while I slowly lost mine? I don’t need another lecture, I need somebody to listen, I need somebody who can hear me without changing the subject I’ve been screaming without words, I’ve been hurting in silence, And the hardest part of healing is admitting you’re frightened. [Bridge — Piano Only, Almost Crying] Lord, I’m tired… I’m so tired… I don’t recognize the man That I’m seeing in the mirror… Are these demons… Or my fears? Is this pain that’s been inside me Finally louder than my prayers? I don’t wanna live in darkness… I just wanna feel okay… I just wanna close my eyes And not be frightened when I wake… Ohhh-ohhh… Please don’t let me fade away… [Final Chorus — Powerful, Raspy High Notes] I been seeing demons when the lights go out… (lights go out) Got a war inside my head, I can’t fight it now… (help me now) Everybody hear me laughing, don’t know I’m breaking down, I’m still searching for the peace that I ain’t ever found. Shadows in the hallway, I can feel ‘em creeping, I been asking God for rest, but I’m scared when I’m sleeping If You hear me through the tears, Lord, give me a reason, I don’t wanna spend my whole life fighting demons every evening… [Outro — Soft, Distant Vocals] Ohhh, I’m still here… Even with the fear…