Don’t wait up for me

Lyrics

Soft vocals .melodic vocals I been walking through this darkness so long, Sometimes I forget what the light look like… They say everybody got a final destination… I just hope mine ain’t where my pain been taking me. Tell the devil don’t wait up for me… I took a detour. Verse 1 I been having conversations with the man up in the sky, Asking why He gave me wings if He gon’ watch me while I die inside. Got a thousand different scars that I been hiding from the light, And a million things I wish I could go back and make right. I seen good hearts turn cold, seen the realest people leave, Had to learn that even family can be strangers when you grieve. I was walking down a road where every turn was misery, Had the devil at the crossroads saying, “Come and walk with me.” I said, “I know you got a place for every soul that lost control, But I ain't finished fighting demons that been living in my soul. I got people I ain't hugged enough, got stories left untold, And a little bit of faith beneath this heart that's turning cold.” I ain't saying I ain't tired, I'm just tired of feeling weak, Tired of having all these thoughts that I can't even speak. If the destination's death, then I'm taking a different street, Tell the devil keep the porch light on, but don't save a seat. Chorus — melodic, emotional singing Tell the devil don't wait up for me, I took a detour, I ain't ready to leave. I got too much pain, but there's still hope in me, Got a heart full of wounds that I'm begging to heal. If my final destination's death, I'ma fight for every breath. Even when I can't see the road, I ain't giving up just yet. Tell the devil don't wait up for me… No, don't wait up for me. I'm still trying to find the man That this broken world took from me. Verse 2 I done cried so many nights, even my pillow know my secrets, Had to smile in front of people while my soul was barely breathing. I was looking for a reason, all I found was more demons, Praying God would hear my voice when I ain't have the strength to scream it. Funny how you say you're drowning, everybody think you're swimming, They congratulate your strength while you're inside slowly quitting. I been standing in the rain, trying to figure out the distance Between surviving every day and actually living. And I know the road gets dark when you ain't got nobody near, When the only voice that answers is the one inside your fear. But I made it through December, I can make it through this year, Even if I gotta walk this road with trembling knees and tears. Death been written in the stories of the people that I lost, I been trying to make some sense of all the pain and all the cost. But I'm not letting my tomorrow pay for everything I've lost, I might stumble on this journey, but I'm not calling that a loss. Bridge 1 — , (Guitar slows down; let each chord ring.) Mama, if you hear me crying, I don't know how much I got left. I've been carrying everybody, While neglecting my own breath. God, I ain't asking for a perfect life, Just a little peace inside my chest. I've been fighting wars that no one sees, And I'm tired of failing every test. (Voice cracks, rising into a high note.) IF YOU STILL GOT PLANS FOR ME, GOD, THEN DON'T LET ME LOSE MY WAY! I got reasons left for living, Even when I can't explain… I don't wanna be a memory, I don't wanna leave in pain. If there's sunshine past this storm, Lord, Let me see it through the rain! Chorus 2 — stronger vocals, heartfelt ad-libs Tell the devil don't wait up for me, (don't wait up) I took a detour, I still got dreams. I got scars on my heart that nobody sees, But there's still a little life left inside of me. If my final destination's death, I'ma fight for every breath. When the night says I'm not worth saving, I'll remember what You said. Tell the devil don't wait up for me, I ain't who I used to be. I been lost, I been broken, But this road ain't finished with me. Bridge 2 — stripped down, nearly spoken (One acoustic guitar string pattern; long pauses between lines.) I used to think being strong meant never crying, Now I know it's wiping tears and still trying. I used to think that being lost meant I was done, Now I know the longest night still gives way to the sun. And if tomorrow finds me hurting, I'll take tomorrow one breath at a time. I don't have to see the whole road, I just gotta make it through tonight. (Soft falsetto, gradually rising.) Devil, you can keep that road… I ain't taking it tonight. There's a little hope inside me, There's a reason left to fight. God, I'm still here asking, Even when I don't know why. Maybe I ain't found my purpose, But I'm not ready to say goodbye. Final Chorus — crying vocals, soaring high notes Tell the devil don't wait up for me, Tell the devil don't wait up for me… I'M STILL HERE, I'M STILL TRYING! Even when my faith gets weak, Even when my soul gets tired. If my final destination's death, Then today ain't that day yet. I've got chapters left to write, I've got tears I ain't cried yetttt