Weight Like My Name

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Mama kept the porch light on past two I came in with a lie and mud on my shoes You asked if I was good, I said, “Yeah, I’m straight” Then sat in that kitchen and stared at my plate I learned how to smile when the bills came due Learned how to say “I’m fine” when it wasn’t true Now everybody calls when they need that hand But where the hell were y’all when I had no plan? [Pre-Chorus] I don’t want your pity, I just want the truth How you say you love me, then you cut me loose? I gave you my word, gave you all I had You took that shit and still called me bad [Chorus] I been carrying the weight like it’s part of my name Tryna make peace with the ones who brought pain If I let you back, don’t you play with my trust I’ve been down too long, I’ve been through too much I still hear your voice when the whole house sleeps Still keep my guard where my heart should be You can call it pride, you can call it a mess I’m just tryna live with this shit in my chest [Verse 2] You said forever in the passenger seat Then made me feel like a stranger in a week I kept your old note in the glove box fold Found it last month when the weather turned cold I ain’t proud of the ways I shut people out Or the nights I got loud just to drown my doubt But I paid my own tab, took the long way home Now I know being loved ain’t the same as being owned [Pre-Chorus] I don’t want your pity, I just want the truth How you say you love me, then you cut me loose? I gave you my word, gave you all I had You took that shit and still called me bad [Chorus] I been carrying the weight like it’s part of my name Tryna make peace with the ones who brought pain If I let you back, don’t you play with my trust I’ve been down too long, I’ve been through too much I still hear your voice when the whole house sleeps Still keep my guard where my heart should be You can call it pride, you can call it a mess I’m just tryna live with this shit in my chest [Bridge] If I could talk to the kid I was back then I’d say, “You don’t owe them your skin” Keep your head up, don’t beg them to stay Some doors save your life when they close that way [Final Chorus] I been carrying the weight, but it don’t own my name Found a little peace, still remember the pain If I let you close, better handle my trust I’ve been down too long, I’ve survived too much I still hear your voice, but it don’t run me deep I can finally rest when the whole house sleeps Call it pride, call it healing, call it what’s next I’m still here, still breathing, still more than this mess [Outro] Still here, still breathing That’s enough for tonight