Billy

Lyrics

[INTRO — PIANO & BLUES GUITAR] I still remember twenty-twenty, the silence everywhere... Then I saw you by that pool, and suddenly... you were there. [VERSE 1] I had a life, I had a promise, I knew your heart was not for me. But one look became a secret, and that secret became everything. One call turned into every morning, every night I heard your voice. We knew that we were playing with fire, but the heart had made its choice. [PRE-CHORUS] Then you needed somewhere to go, I held your world inside my hands. I took care of little Maggie while life was changing all our plans. And when my own world fell apart, you never let me fall alone. Billy, how could you feel like forever and still never become my home? [CHORUS] Before you closed the door, before you walked away, tell me, did you ever love me the way I loved you every day? Before you closed the door, before you said goodbye, did you leave a piece of your heart here like you left your heart in mine? 'Cause I can empty every room, I can try to erase your name, but I can't teach this heart to never love you again. [VERSE 2] Then sickness came into your life, and I was frightened for you too. I said, “Come home, I'll take care of you,” and that's exactly what you chose to do. For a while we had our mornings, we had our nights, our little world. No promises about tomorrow, just two hearts against the world. And God, those ordinary moments are the ones that hurt me now. I didn't know while we were living them I'd someday live without. [PRE-CHORUS] Then something changed without a warning, your suitcase waited by the door. You went back to your apartment... and suddenly we weren't “us” anymore. [CHORUS — BIGGER] Before you closed the door, before you walked away, tell me, did you ever love me the way I loved you every day? Before you closed the door, before our little world went dark, did you know that when you left me you were taking half my heart? I can change the photographs, I can rearrange this place, but I can't make these walls forget the memory of your face. [BLUES GUITAR SOLO] [BRIDGE — ALMOST SPOKEN] Sometimes I still think about that swimming pool... That first phone call... Your things beside mine... Maggie sleeping peacefully... You sleeping next to me. Billy... I miss you so much. And maybe what I miss is partly a mirage... a beautiful reflection of what we were, standing in front of what we really are. I know memories can make yesterday more beautiful than it was. I know the heart can paint an illusion when it doesn't want to say goodbye. But knowing that doesn't make me miss you any less. Because when your memory finds me, Billy, when I remember your voice, your eyes, your place beside me... it feels like my heart beats slower. Like something inside my chest still waits for you. Maybe that's the illusion... but the ache is real. [SOFT VOCAL] Billy, I miss you... more than I should, more than I say, more than you'll ever know. [FINAL CHORUS — FULL SOUL VOCAL] Before you closed the door, I should've held you one more time. I should've told you that you changed me, that knowing you had changed my life. And if I'd known that final morning was the last time you'd be there, I'd have memorized every second, every touch, every breath, every prayer. No, I won't ask you to come back. I won't pretend the past was perfect. I won't confuse a memory with the life we couldn't share. But Billy... there are nights I still One call turned into every morning, every night I heard your voice. We knew that we were playing with fire, but the heart had made its choice. [PRE-CHORUS] Then you needed somewhere to go, I held your world inside my hands. I took care of little Maggie while life was changing all our plans. And when my own world fell apart, you never let me fall alone. Billy, how could you feel like forever and still never become my home? [CHORUS] Before you closed the door, before you walked away, tell me, did you ever love me the way I loved you every day? Before you closed the door, before you said goodbye, did you leave a piece of your heart here like you left your heart in mine? [VERSE 2] The echoes of our laughter still haunt the hallway, the picture frame is crooked but still holds you. I walked those streets in empty shoes, trying to find the rhythm that we used to groove. You were the thunder in my quiet summer, a spark that lit the night, and then you faded. I kept the candle burning, though the wind blew, hoping the glow would bring your smile back to me. [PRE-CHORUS] I remember how you’d say, “Let’s not pretend, there’s a chance for us, we can start again.” But life had different plans, and I held my breath, while you were stepping away from our love’s depth. [CHORUS] Before you closed the door, before the echo turned to dust, did you know the words you left behind were the ones I’d