Tell the truth

Lyrics

I don't know what's wrong with me lately… I got people all around me, still feel like nobody sees me… I used to feel everything… Now I just feel empty… (softly) I don't feel nothin' no mo-o-ore… [Verse 1 — low, intimate singing] I wake up every morning with a weight I can't explain, Lookin' in the mirror, tryna recognize my face. Everybody ask me how I'm doin', I say, “Okay,” But if they knew what I've been fightin', they would hear the pain. I used to love the little things, now they don't hit the same, I can stand out in the sunshine, still feel stuck inside the rain. I got so good at hidin' hurt, I forgot to show the pain, Now they think that I'm the happiest when I'm barely feelin' sane. I got messages I never answered, people I pushed away, Not because I didn't love 'em, I just didn't know what to say. How you tell somebody you're drowning when you look okay? How you tell 'em you're exhausted when you make it through the day? I been searchin' for the person that I was before the hurt, Tryna figure out my value when I feel like I ain't worth All the love that people give me, so I hide behind my words, And I wonder if somebody'd miss me if my silence went unheard. [Pre-Chorus — melody slowly rises] I don't get excited like I used to… Even when it's good news, I feel blue… I keep tellin' everybody I'm alright… Then I break down by myself late at night… Oh, late at ni-i-ight… [Hook / Chorus — clean, emotional singing] I don't feel nothin' no mo-o-ore… Why my heart don't wanna heal no mo-o-ore… I been holdin' back these tears for way too lo-o-ong… Everybody think I'm fine, but they so wro-o-ong… I been searchin' for the light, but I can't see the do-o-or… I don't even know what I'm still fightin' fo-o-or… I keep tellin' myself I gotta carry o-o-on… But I'm tired of bein' here and feelin' so alo-o-one… (soft high note) Oh-oh, I'm so alo-o-one… I don't feel nothin' no mo-o-ore… [Verse 2 — more vulnerable, smooth melodic delivery] I remember when a phone call could turn my whole day 'round, Now my phone can ring a hundred times, I never make a sound. I got people who would listen, but I never let 'em down On the things that's really hurtin' me, I keep that buried down. I been everybody's shoulder when their world was fallin' apart, Put the pieces back together while neglectin' my own heart. Funny how I know the words to help somebody through the dark, But when I need somebody's light, I don't know where to start. I done smiled through conversations with a storm behind my eyes, Said I'm good so many times, I almost made myself believe the lies. I don't wanna be a burden, so I keep it all inside, But the silence getting heavier with every night that passes by. And I hate that I got used to bein' numb instead of healed, I hate that I don't know the difference between peace and how I feel. I don't need somebody to come save me, I just need somebody real, Someone who can sit beside me while I learn to feel again. [Pre-Chorus 2 — quiet singing, gentle vibrato] I don't even know what makes me happy… I just know this empty feeling hasn't left me… I keep lookin' for a reason to believe… There's a better version of myself beneath me… Somewhere underneath me… [Hook / Chorus — same phrasing, stronger emotion] I don't feel nothin' no mo-o-ore… Why my heart don't wanna heal no mo-o-ore… I been holdin' back these tears for way too lo-o-ong… Everybody think I'm fine, but they so wro-o-ong… I been searchin' for the light, but I can't see the do-o-or… I don't even know what I'm still fightin' fo-o-or… I keep tellin' myself I gotta carry o-o-on… But I'm tired of bein' here and feelin' so alo-o-one… Oh-oh, I'm so alo-o-one… I don't feel nothin' no mo-o-ore… [Verse 3 — storytelling, soft and heartbreaking] I got memories I revisit when the house gets quiet, Little moments I would give the world to have one more time. I keep all these conversations playin' over in my mind, Thinkin' maybe if I'd done things different, I'd be doin' fine. I wish somebody saw the things I never say out loud, How I feel invisible even when I'm in a crowd. How I wanna let my guard down, but I don't know how, How I'm scared to let 'em close because they might not stick around. Maybe I been hurt so long that I forgot that I deserve To be loved without performin', to be heard without the words. Maybe I been carryin' a weight that no one else can see, And I've spent so much time survivin' that I forgot about me. I don't need a perfect life, don't need a million-dollar view, I just want a little peace and someone I can tell the truth. I wanna laugh and mean it, feel the sunshine comin' through, I wanna know that somewhere deep inside, I'm still the old me too. [Bridge — guitar nearly stops, voice soft and trembling] If I told you that I'm hurtin'… Would you stay here for a while? Would you see behind the silence… Would you recognize my smile? I've been strong for everybody… I don't know how to let go… I've been carryin' this sadness… Longer than they even no