Rod

Lyrics

I thought gettin’ rich would fix what being broke did… But money only changed the people around me. It ain’t heal what was broken in me… [Hook — melodic, stretch the last words] I put my heart in people’s hands, they dropped it, now I’m guarded… I gave them access to my soul, they used the code to rob it… I used to pray for all this money, now I’m praying I don’t lose me… They see the diamonds on my body, never see what I been through, see… I made it out the rain, still got some clouds above me… They say they proud of me, but I can feel the envy touch me… I thought the top would feel like freedom, why I feel imprisoned? I won the race against the world, lost myself up in the finish… [Verse 1 — tight flow, punchline after punchline] I gave a hand to people drowning, they tried pulling me under Now I know why they call it backstabbin’—you get stabbed by your brother I put my trust in all the wrong ones, that was fraud with no signature They stole years up out my life, I still ain’t got a reimbursement My heart got a waiting room, but everybody lost their appointment They only call when they need somethin’, I should charge ’em for enjoyment I used to sleep on broken dreams, now I wake up with expensive problems Funny how you get some commas, still can’t find peace to solve ’em I seen a friend turn to a stranger without even switching outfits He knew everything about me, that’s what made the betrayal toxic I gave ’em flowers while I had ’em, they brought roses to my funeral Some people only show you love when losing you becomes suitable I got a million-dollar vision with a ten-cent circle Everybody claim they solid till the pressure make ’em crumble I was down bad, they disappeared like money in a robbery Now they wanna split the blessings, but was never there to pray with me My pockets got fatter, but the circle got thinner Had to lose a couple people just to recognize the winners I put my pain in every bar, that’s why the truth got a fee They want the story of my scars, but never paid the cost to bleed [Hook — melodic, emotional harmonies] I put my heart in people’s hands, they dropped it, now I’m guarded… I gave them access to my soul, they used the code to rob it… I used to pray for all this money, now I’m praying I don’t lose me… They see the diamonds on my body, never see what I been through, see… I made it out the rain, still got some clouds above me… They say they proud of me, but I can feel the envy touch me… I thought the top would feel like freedom, why I feel imprisoned? I won the race against the world, lost myself up in the finish… [Verse 2 — faster pockets, layered metaphors] I got trust issues, my heart treat every promise like a suspect They say time heal wounds, but mine just taught me where to cut ties I put my family on my back, now they complaining how I carry ’em I gave a seat to every passenger, they mad I’m not the chariot My life a game of chess, I lost some pieces tryna save the king I learned that being everybody’s hero ain’t the safest thing They threw dirt on my name, I grew roots and made a garden Now the same ones who was laughing ask me how I got it started My biggest fear ain’t going broke, it’s having money with no meaning Having people in my face while all their real intentions bleeding I got baggage from the past, success just paid for extra luggage They see me flying first class, don't know turbulence above it I put my demons on a leash, but they still know all my triggers I can turn a dollar to a thousand, can't turn strangers into brothers They want a piece of what I built, but never carried bricks Want the credit for the house, but wasn't present for the mix I used to think that loyalty was something you could earn Now I know some people love the bridge until it's their turn to burn it I gave the world my open hand, it left some fingerprints Now every time somebody loves me, I investigate the evidence [Bridge — piano and acoustic guitar, voice cracking slightly] Tell me, would you love me if the money disappeared? Would you sit beside my bed if all my enemies came near? Would you tell me I'm enough when I got nothing left to prove? Or do you love the man I'm becoming, not the man that made it through? I been fighting with my thoughts, I just got better at concealing… Sometimes being called a winner don't mean you know what healing is… [Verse 3 — hardest punchlines, controlled delivery] My success got a dark side, every blessing cast a shadow Everybody wants the fruit, nobody asking what it cost to grow the apple I done watched a handshake turn to handcuffs for my spirit Some people say they got your back just so they know where you weakest My name ring bells, but ain't nobody checking if I'm home I got everybody's number, still feel like I got no one I made a living out of pain, now they pay to hear me suffer Turned my scars into a business, still ain't figured out recovery I got expensive taste, but peace the only thing I’m missing You can buy a bigger house,