Porch Light On

Lyrics

[Intro] I kept the porch light on though you never said you'd come Coffee going cold beside me, morning's barely begun [Verse 1] Mama said, “Keep your head up,” but she never saw the nights Counting every unpaid bill underneath the kitchen light My brother called from county, said, “Don’t let the world turn you cold” I told him I was built for pressure, but I was scared to fold I wore the same black hoodie through a whole December storm Smiled for everybody else, then broke down when I got home If I ever seem distant, I’m just trying not to drown You were the only place I rested when the whole world wore me down [Pre-Chorus] And I know I don’t say enough But losing you made me afraid of love [Chorus] If I call, please answer, I got too much on my mind I’ve been fighting with these memories, they follow all the time I don’t need a perfect promise, I just need you to stay When the weight gets on my shoulders, don’t let me fade away [Verse 2] I remember riding buses with a hole inside my shoe Saving up my lunch money just to buy a gift for you You said, “One day you’ll be somebody,” I believed it for a while Then success came with a distance, took the softness from my smile Now the rooms are getting bigger, but the silence hits the same Everybody knows the music, nobody knows the pain I’ve been learning how to forgive the boy I used to be He was doing what he could with what was left inside of me [Pre-Chorus] And I know I don’t say enough But losing you made me afraid of love [Chorus] If I call, please answer, I got too much on my mind I’ve been fighting with these memories, they follow all the time I don’t need a perfect promise, I just need you to stay When the weight gets on my shoulders, don’t let me fade away [Bridge] If tomorrow takes the money, if the headlines disappear I’ll still be that kid on the back steps wishing you were here So if my voice gets quiet, read the truth across my face I’m not asking you to fix me, just don’t leave without a trace [Final Chorus] If I call, please answer, I got too much on my mind I’ve been fighting with these memories, they follow all the time I don’t need a perfect promise, I just need you to stay When the weight gets on my shoulders, don’t let me fade away [Outro] I kept the porch light on, now I’m learning how to sleep Some wounds don’t disappear, but they don’t have to bury me