Stay By My Side

Lyrics

[Intro] I keep saying I'm fine Like the word can hold me up [Verse 1] There's a dent in the door where I threw my keys And a week-old shirt on the kitchen chair I tell my brother I'm getting some sleep Then I count every hour with my eyes wide there I quit that powder, swore I'd shut that door But I traded one bottle for another kind of fall Now the glass on the counter keeps asking for more And I don't know if I'm running from the pain or just making it tall [Pre-Chorus] If you saw how hard I fight when the house goes still You'd know I'm not choosing this, I'm just trying to feel [Chorus] Somebody see me before I disappear I'm carrying a hurt I can't outrun from here I put one fire out, lit another in my hand Now I'm asking for a lifeline, not a lecture or a plan I need somebody to stay while I tell the truth I'm scared of what I do when I'm alone with the blues If you can hear me through this worn-out pride Come sit with me tonight, don't let me hide [Verse 2] Mama says my voice sounds thinner on the phone I make a joke, change the subject, say the truck won't start There's a chair at the table that I leave pulled out Like some part of me still thinks I'll let somebody in my heart I know a number I could call, got it saved in my phone But my thumb hangs there like the screen weighs a ton I'm tired of making promises I carry alone Tired of waking up ashamed of what I haven't outrun [Pre-Chorus] If you saw how hard I fight when the house goes still You'd know I'm not choosing this, I'm just trying to feel [Chorus] Somebody see me before I disappear I'm carrying a hurt I can't outrun from here I put one fire out, lit another in my hand Now I'm asking for a lifeline, not a lecture or a plan I need somebody to stay while I tell the truth I'm scared of what I do when I'm alone with the blues If you can hear me through this worn-out pride Come sit with me tonight, don't let me hide [Bridge] I don't need you to fix me in a single night Just help me make the call, help me get through tonight Take the bottle off the table, let the morning come slow I can start with one honest word: I don't want to go [Final Chorus] Somebody see me, I'm still standing here I'm carrying a hurt, but I'm saying it clear I put one fire out; I won't feed the next flame I'll reach for a hand and I'll speak out my name I need somebody to stay while I tell the truth I'm scared, but I'm asking, and that's something new If you can hear me through this worn-out pride Come sit with me tonight, stay by my side [Outro] I keep saying I'm fine But tonight I won't lie Stay by my side