When Was the Last Time

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Fifteen, sitting on the bedroom floor School bag slumped by the half-shut door You ask yourself when you last felt glad Not just a good day, not just less bad [Pre-Chorus] You say, “I’m fine, it’s all okay” Like saying it might make it stay But the word feels strange against your tongue Like a song you knew when you were young [Chorus] When was the last time you felt happy? Not for a minute, not for show When did your own life feel like somewhere You were glad you got to go? You try to tell yourself you’ve got it But the truth won’t fit that neatly Maybe happiness can let you down And that’s why it feels so hard to reach me [Verse 2] Your friends all ask what you’ll do someday You grin and give them the usual answer anyway There’s a list of things you’re meant to want And a quiet little doubt you can’t turn off [Pre-Chorus] You say, “I’m fine, it’s all okay” Then lose the line before it’s done You’re not asking for a perfect life Just one that feels a little like your own [Chorus] When was the last time you felt happy? Not for a minute, not for show When did your own life feel like somewhere You were glad you got to go? You try to tell yourself you’ve got it But the truth won’t fit that neatly Maybe happiness can let you down And that’s why it feels so hard to reach me [Bridge] You don’t have to solve it by tonight Or make a promise you can’t keep Maybe one small thing still feels like yours A porch-step breeze, a laugh you didn’t mean [Final Chorus] Maybe the next time you feel happy Won’t arrive with a sign or sound Maybe it’s a little less pretending When somebody asks how you’ve been doing now You don’t have to call it perfect You can let the answer be unfinished Maybe happiness can let you down And still be worth the days you haven’t lived yet [Outro] Fifteen, sitting on the bedroom floor You leave the door a little more open