awerysopelea - I Miss Me Too

Lyrics

[Verse 1: intimate, piano and clean guitar] I turn the key so quietly, As if there's someone I could wake. The dog lies down beside me. For a while, that's where I stay. All day I had an answer. All day I knew my part. Now I'm sitting in the hallway, Still too dressed to fall apart. [Pre-Chorus: bass enters, tension rising] When you were here, the quiet Never asked me to be strong. I didn't have to earn my place. I could just belong. [Chorus: full guitars and heavy drums] I miss you. God, I miss me too. The one who fell asleep With nothing left to prove. I'd give up being stronger For one evening in that room. I thought I only lost you. God, I miss me too. [Post-Chorus: aching guitar response] I miss me too. [Verse 2: pull back, close vocal] My mother's kitchen light is on A few doors down from mine. I keep saying, "Maybe Sunday," Like we couldn't run out of time. I know love hasn't left me. That's what I can't explain. How can I be loved this much And still feel far away? [Pre-Chorus: low toms, growing pressure] I know how much I have to lose. Why can't I feel it while it's here? I keep making it to morning. I keep wishing you were near. [Chorus: wider, more urgent] I miss you. God, I miss me too. The one who fell asleep With nothing left to prove. I'd give up being stronger For one evening in that room. I thought I only lost you. God, I miss me too. [Instrumental: eight-bar electric-guitar solo, long aching bends, rising melody, heavy drums] [Bridge: sudden drop, exposed voice and cello] If there's someone in the silence, I don't need the sky explained. I need one unguarded moment Where I don't rehearse the pain. [Bridge: drums slowly build] I want to hear my father laughing And just hear my father laugh. Not start counting down the evenings. Not start missing what I have. [One full bar of silence] [Final Chorus: maximum weight, raw melodic belt] I miss you. God, I miss me too. And I'm so tired of getting through The days I don't want to lose. I don't know how to get there. I just know I want to. I thought I only missed you. God, I miss me too. [Post-Chorus: sustained vocal, guitars answer] The days I don't want to lose. I don't want to lose. [Outro: solo piano, softly sung] I call before I change my mind. She asks if I'm okay. I almost say the usual thing. "Can I come over?"