Echoes in Neon Silence

Lyrics

I came home late again tonight, same four walls, the same old light. No one waiting by the door, no one asking me what I’m hurting for. Just the silence calling out my name, reminding me that nothing’s changed. I learned young how to hide my tears, say “I’m okay” when I’m falling apart. Everybody found somebody to hold, while I kept getting left out in the cold. I got a phone full of empty names, old conversations and forgotten days. Sometimes it rings, but it’s never for me, I’m surrounded by people, still nobody sees. My bedroom knows every secret I keep, my pillow knows the nights I couldn’t sleep. I learned how to smile when I wanted to cry, how to say “I’m fine” while I’m dying inside. And sometimes I look up at the sky, wondering if I’m the one who got it wrong. Did I really ask for too much just wanting someone to stay this long? ’Cause I’m so lonely, even with a thousand people around. Nobody knows what my heart’s been hiding, nobody hears when I’m crying out loud. And I’m so lonely, I learned to hold myself when I’m cold. I talk to myself when there’s nobody home. So if you’re listening to this song, stay with me a little longer… I’ve been talking to my own voice for too long. There were people who promised they’d never leave, then disappeared like I was nothing to them. They said “forever” like they meant every word, now forever is the promise that hurts the most. I still keep pictures of days gone by, faces I miss but I don’t know why. Sometimes memories are all that I have, even the painful ones make me feel less sad. My mother asked me, “Why are you so quiet?” I said, “I’m just tired,” but I couldn’t deny it. I didn’t wanna tell her I was breaking inside, so I swallowed every word and pretended I was fine. Then one night I stared into the mirror, trying to recognize the person standing there. I wondered if that little boy I used to be would be disappointed in the man he sees. And sometimes I look up at the sky, with nothing left to say or pray. Everything I ever wanted somehow found a way to fade away. ’Cause I’m so lonely, even with a thousand people around. Nobody knows what my heart’s been hiding, nobody hears when I’m crying out loud. And I’m so lonely, I learned to hold myself when I’m cold. I talk to myself when there’s nobody home. So if you’re listening to this song, stay with me a little longer… I’ve been talking to my own voice for too long. But maybe… maybe it’s not the end. Maybe somewhere out there I’ll find a friend. Maybe there’s somebody feeling just like me, looking for a place where they can finally breathe. And if you’re hearing this alone in your room tonight, if you’re pretending to be strong while you’re losing the fight… You’re not invisible, even if nobody says your name. You’re not broken, even if you don’t feel the same. ’Cause I was lonely, but I don’t wanna hide my heart anymore. I don’t care if they see all the scars. If nobody asks me how I’m doing, I’ll sing until somebody hears me. I’m not lonely, ’cause maybe my story can help somebody. Maybe my voice can reach somebody who’s been feeling just like me. So if you’re listening to this song, stay with me a little longer… maybe you needed to hear my voice. I came home late again tonight, same four walls, the same old light. Still nobody waiting by the door… But for the first time, the silence didn’t scare me anymore. Because sometimes you have to get lost before you learn how to find yourself. And even if nobody knows my name… Maybe someday, somebody will sing my song.