This Pain Won't Wash Away

Lyrics

[Verse 1 — Slow acoustic, tired and raspy] Pouring rain, lighting strikes, another day of feeling pain Oh this feeling doesn't get any better, it just won't wash away The water keep running but the pain keeps on coming I'm trying not to go insane. My livelihood was just a dream, all my friends abandoned me And now I'm alone sitting, without no one here next to me. [Pre-Chorus — Soft, emotional buildup] Used to have a driveway full of headlights, Now it's just an empty place to park. Funny how the ones who said they'd never leave you, Are the ones who leave the deepest scars. [Chorus — Powerful, raspy, heartbreaking] So let it rain, let it pour, I ain't who I was anymore. I lost the people I'd have died for, And the man I used to be. I've been holding on to nothing, While the whole world's moving on without me. And I can stand out here till the sky turns gray, But this pain won't wash away. [Verse 2 — Stripped-back, storytelling] I still drive down those old back roads, Where we used to waste our Friday nights. Now the radio's the only thing that's talking, And these headlights don't make the darkness bright. Got some numbers in my phone I used to call, But I know they wouldn't answer anyway. I gave the best of me to people who forgot me, Guess some promises were never meant to stay. [Pre-Chorus — Voice cracking] I used to think I'd make it somewhere, Had a thousand dreams inside my head. Now I'm staring at the ceiling every morning, Trying to find a reason to get out of bed. [Chorus — Full band, emotional] So let it rain, let it pour, I ain't who I was anymore. I lost the people I'd have died for, And the man I used to be. I've been holding on to nothing, While the whole world's moving on without me. And I can stand out here till the sky turns gray, But this pain won't wash away. [Bridge — Guitar fades, nearly spoken] And I don't know what hurts me worse, The ones who left or what I've become. I used to be the one everybody counted on, Now I ain't got nowhere to run. Sometimes I miss those people, Sometimes I just miss those days. But I think what I miss the most, Is who I was before they walked away. [Final Chorus — Breaking voice, explosive emotion] So let it rain, let it pour, God, I can't take much more. I lost the people I'd have died for, And the man I used to be. And if there's something left worth saving, Lord, I hope there's still a piece of me. 'Cause I've been standing in this storm for days, And this pain won't wash away. [Outro — Quiet acoustic, almost whispering] Pouring rain, lightning strikes, Another day, another lonely night. The water keeps running, And the pain keeps coming... And it just won't wash away.