The Whole Book I Wrote

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Three years of loving you with everything I had, Three years of memories, the good times and the bad. I was there when you were hurting, I was there when you would cry, I was the one who stayed beside you, Never needed a reason why. You always told me, "Never lie to me," And I promised you I never would. You said, "If you find somebody, tell me," But you never understood... I wasn't looking for somebody, I wasn't searching for someone new. I had already found my forever, The day I fell in love with you. [Pre-Chorus] I felt the distance growing, Felt you slowly slipping away. But I never saw this coming, Never thought we'd end this way. [Chorus] How do I stop loving you, When you're all I've ever wanted? How do I erase three years, When every memory's still haunted? You were my future, you were my home, The one I never wanted to let go. Now I'm breaking over something I never thought I'd have to know. And I don't know how to hate you, Even after what I've been through. You may have a life without me, But mine was built around you. And if you ever need somebody, You know what I'll always do. Even with my heart in pieces, I'll still be here for you. [Verse 2] I treated you like you were everything, 'Cause to me, that's what you were. I tried to give you all the love I thought you always deserved. I wasn't perfect, I made mistakes, But my love was always real. And I wish that you could understand Just how much this makes me feel. You were married in the real world, While I was dreaming of our life. I was planning all our tomorrows, Still believing you'd be my wife. And God, I wish I'd never learned it, Wish I could go back to yesterday. Before the truth came crashing down And took my whole world away. [Pre-Chorus 2] I knew that something had been changing, I could hear it in your voice. But I never thought I'd lose you To a life where I'm not your choice. [Chorus] How do I stop loving you, When you're all I've ever wanted? How do I erase three years, When every memory's still haunted? You were my future, you were my home, The one I never wanted to let go. Now I'm breaking over something I never thought I'd have to know. And I don't know how to hate you, Even after what I've been through. You may have a life without me, But mine was built around you. And if you ever need somebody, You know what I'll always do. Even with my heart in pieces, I'll still be here for you. [Bridge – Soft, almost whispered] Was any of it real, Skye? Did you mean the things you said? Were you falling out of love with me While I was dreaming of the days ahead? Did you know how much I loved you? Did you know I'd never leave? Did you know that every promise Was something I believed? I wanted mornings, I wanted nights, I wanted all the years of your life. I wanted laughter, I wanted tears, I wanted you through all our years. And the hardest part of losing you Is knowing that I still choose you. [Final Chorus – Powerful, breaking voice] HOW DO I STOP LOVING YOU, WHEN MY HEART STILL CALLS YOU HOME? HOW DO I FACE TOMORROW, WHEN I NEVER PLANNED TO BE ALONE? I gave you three years of my heart, And I'd have given you a lifetime too. You were never just a chapter, You were the whole book I wrote for you. And I don't know how to hate you, I don't think I ever will. Even though you've broken my heart, God, I love you still. I don't know how to live without you, Don't know how to start again. But if the world ever breaks your heart, You can always call me friend. And if you ever need somebody, Even after all we've been through, I won't pretend this doesn't hurt me... But I'll always care for you. [Outro – Piano only, soft and trembling] Three years wasn't enough for me, I wanted forever with you. You told me never to lie, So here's my final truth... I never wanted anybody else. I never wanted someone new. And even though you're married... I'm still in love with you. I just wish... You'd wanted forever with me, too